I have to admit that this is one of my big concerns. I was thinking about this last night as I lay in bed trying to get back to sleep after having a bad dream about taking the Shahada (more on that later).
My family is all Christian, so if I take the Shahada before Ramadan, I go it alone. I'm not sure I can handle that by myself. It's not necessarily the fasting itself. I like to eat, but I know I should probably not eat as much as I do and can stand to lose a few pounds. No, my worry is that I won't be able to stick with it once I start. I don't have any Muslim friends, so everything I do right now, I do on my own.
Which brings me back to the first part. I dreamt that I was trying to take Shahada and kept getting the words wrong and everyone there laughed at me. It disturbed me so much that I couldn't get back to sleep for a while. I took it as a sign from Allah that I am not ready yet.
It all sounds stupid, and maybe it is. But, there it is. It's out there now.