sisterlove3
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This has happened three times. During Ramadan I went to the masjid twice for iftar and felt nothing. When I was praying with the sisters I didn't feel anything either. At Eid I just walked in, gave Salaams to the sisters, made my two rakaats and recited the Takbir. Afterwards we made Eid prayer and I still didn't feel anything, I cried when it was over and felt sad the whole day. I don't know what is wrong but going to the masjid doesn't feel the same.
Years ago my family and friends would go to Jumah prayer every Friday and hanging out at the masjid until Isha was over. We would laugh and talk and have a good time. There was so much joy and love just in being there.
During this Eid everyone was happy and laughing and I just sat there looking around. There were people who recognized me and hugged me asking where have I been? I hadn't been to the masjid in years. I stayed for about 30 minutes then left back home I didn't participate in any activities. The only thing that I can think of is maybe the feeling comes from being away from the masjid for years. I was married to a man who I blind followed because he had more knowledge about the religion than me; he told me that the Hadith said "Do not mix with the people of innovation" so he told me that I had to stop going to a few masjids because they practice innovation and wasn't practicing Islam the right way. I believed him and out of respect I stopped going to the masjid for 8 years. My heart became content with it and I felt more connected to Allah when I prayed at home. I still feel the same way I feel so many emotions when I pray at home but in the masjid nothing was there no feelings, no joy or happiness. Is this a bad sign? How can I get back to being connected to the masjid? Since I was away for so long did Allah detach my heart from the masjid?
Years ago my family and friends would go to Jumah prayer every Friday and hanging out at the masjid until Isha was over. We would laugh and talk and have a good time. There was so much joy and love just in being there.
During this Eid everyone was happy and laughing and I just sat there looking around. There were people who recognized me and hugged me asking where have I been? I hadn't been to the masjid in years. I stayed for about 30 minutes then left back home I didn't participate in any activities. The only thing that I can think of is maybe the feeling comes from being away from the masjid for years. I was married to a man who I blind followed because he had more knowledge about the religion than me; he told me that the Hadith said "Do not mix with the people of innovation" so he told me that I had to stop going to a few masjids because they practice innovation and wasn't practicing Islam the right way. I believed him and out of respect I stopped going to the masjid for 8 years. My heart became content with it and I felt more connected to Allah when I prayed at home. I still feel the same way I feel so many emotions when I pray at home but in the masjid nothing was there no feelings, no joy or happiness. Is this a bad sign? How can I get back to being connected to the masjid? Since I was away for so long did Allah detach my heart from the masjid?
