I don't want to live anymore

TheLostSoul said:
Salaam and Ramadan Mubarak I have a question since it is Ramadan am I sinful for kufr thoughts and evil thoughts and doubts that come in my head repeatedly basically stuff that is already happening to me
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:wa: and Ramadan Mubarak to you as well. No, you are not sinful even though it's Ramadan.
 
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najimuddin said:
:wa: and Ramadan Mubarak to you as well. No, you are not sinful even though it's Ramadan.
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Though my thoughts were pretty bad and they still are. I mean seriously last night my mind was just think leave the religion and this repeated and I kept on saying astagfrulah but how could I think like that?! I mean the devil is locked up so what is wrong with me and these thoughts are continuing and evil words just come to me. This is supposed to be a time of peace and happiness yet I failed on day 1?! I really didn't want to start like this....
 
Dude you are caught up in this, the big shayateen has been locked (afaik)

just fight! No suicide! I too still have hardship, but I realise I've been doing whispering on myself.... Or perhaps shaytaan has done it too much to the extent that he doesn't need to whisper to you.

May Allah SWT forgive us all for whatever hardship we go through. Ameen.
 
Serinity said:
Dude you are caught up in this, the big shayateen has been locked (afaik)

just fight! No suicide! I too still have hardship, but I realise I've been doing whispering on myself.... Or perhaps shaytaan has done it too much to the extent that he doesn't need to whisper to you.

May Allah SWT forgive us all for whatever hardship we go through. Ameen.
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What annoys me is the fact when I utter certain things certain specific replies come in my mind while I utter something good. Which is annoying I guess it shows the extent of how much I have been affected by this. I don't want to commit suicide at this point because I am still making dua even if they feel empty and fake. Also I self talk way too much! For example, I say did I believe Allah in the past my mind goes yeah do I think it is the truth and then it goes yeah and then I go do i believe in it now and I say of course I do but somewhere deep in my mind it goes the opposite and says not. This is basically my biggest issue because I really just wanna say good as a true Muslim and die with Islam but if I have been affected this much it worries me cause sometimes I say good but when moments like this happen I get pretty upset. So yeah that is a pretty specific post on what is happening to me currently.
 
TheLostSoul said:
Though my thoughts were pretty bad and they still are. I mean seriously last night my mind was just think leave the religion and this repeated and I kept on saying astagfrulah but how could I think like that?! I mean the devil is locked up so what is wrong with me and these thoughts are continuing and evil words just come to me. This is supposed to be a time of peace and happiness yet I failed on day 1?! I really didn't want to start like this....
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The shayateen may be locked up but know that the effects of them can still be on you as this waswasa is was really bad on you, to start off with. So these negative thoughts of leaving Islam (na'uthubillah! [may Allah protect us]) is just what the shaytan wants, so its time for you to relax and cut the tension out.

Whatever is within your power, you do it. Whatever is not - you'r not responsible for that.
 
TheLostSoul said:
Though my thoughts were pretty bad and they still are. I mean seriously last night my mind was just think leave the religion and this repeated and I kept on saying astagfrulah but how could I think like that?! I mean the devil is locked up so what is wrong with me and these thoughts are continuing and evil words just come to me. This is supposed to be a time of peace and happiness yet I failed on day 1?! I really didn't want to start like this....
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When you have those thoughts, think about the hadith I posted also. Think about the reply our beloved Prophet :saws: gave - "That is clear faith".

From what I understand, this situation of yours is a Mercy from Allah (hold on before you call me crazy).

While those thoughts were occurring you kept on saying Astaghfirullah. Do you realize the amount of reward you received while you were doing this? Would you have engaged in as much Istighfar - if any - if those thoughts hadn't come to mind?

From what I understand, your active remembrance of Allah has increased due to this. Your response to this situation is bringing you closer to Allah. Think about all this as well.

So, you haven't failed brother.

Don't worry about where these thoughts are coming from. Just respond to them with the remembrance of Allah, as you already have been doing, :ma:.
 
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Thanks for the help I guess I should just calm down. I always get worried or panic because I call my self a kafir and say I follow that way in my mind even though truly don't and follow Islam I guess these thoughts were just that bad. I'll follow the advice and calm down at least I'm glad to know I am still Muslim and have faith
 
I guess the effects will take long to go. So I guess I'll just continue making dua and ask for forgiveness and guidance
 
Brother, this is just waswasa from shaytan and you should ignore it ... just do tawba and go straight brother and do not intentionally think of anything blasphemeous or bad; even if you do, all you need to do is tawba and try hard not to think such things; keep your mind busy with zikr and other good thoughts
 
I know it is pretty annoying for you guys to keep on telling me everything will be fine but this is the month of Ramadan and nothing is improving I still get these thoughts that deny Allah and accept evil and I even uttered kufr today. I make dua but I feel like I am just evil and it won't be accepted for evil people. I feel like a hypocrite I mean seriously who can think I think of you guys just saw what I think purposely or not you guys will be disgusted by my thoughts. I don't know what thoughts are mine and not mine. I keep on saying please remove my pride and evil. But now my eyes have become dry and feel dead. I don't know what I am doing wrong.
 
I shouldn't be depressed it won't help subhanalah. But this always happens my emotion switch like instantly.
 
I have a question if someone is cursed will they never be able to come back to Allah even if they want to? Will they just be misguided for the rest of their lives? I just seen some information saying that if one is cursed by Allah he won't be forgiven never and will be led astray..
 
Subhanallah what a challenge you are facing my beloved brother in Islam.

May Allah subhano wa Ta'ala grant you ease in your hardship. amin

May He grant you increased transparency to the solution of this challenge. amin

May He grant you increases in patience. amin

May He grant you the ability to differentiate between right and wrong. amin.

May He grant you the ability to acknowledge the opportunities in your life, and to strive only for the Right Path in all of them. Amin.

Ya Rabb - please grant these du'a, not only for this brother, but for all believers - wherever they are around the world - regardless of condition or faith. Amin.
 
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TheLostSoul said:
I have a question if someone is cursed will they never be able to come back to Allah even if they want to? Will they just be misguided for the rest of their lives? I just seen some information saying that if one is cursed by Allah he won't be forgiven never and will be led astray..
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No brother, dont think like you'r cursed. Allah swt guides those who wants guidance. Be hopeful in it and in His mercy. It is always there. The information what you've seen about is for those people who willfully commit kufr and shirk with no intention to obey Allah swt, the warning is for them.
May Allah swt keep you guided onto the straight path ameen.

The thoughts that are troubling you so much, they are beyond your control. I think writing your worries and fears here will help you deal with it and eventually you will find peace of mind, insha'allah.
 
TheLostSoul said:
I will try because I am getting stupid doubts
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On the authority of Abu Hurayrah (may Allah be pleased with him) that the Prophet (ﷺ), from among the things he reports from his Lord (mighty and sublime be He), is that he said:


A servant [of Allah's] committed a sin and said: O Allah, forgive me my sin. And He (glorified and exalted be He) said: My servant has committed a sin and has known that he has a Lord who forgives sins and punishes for them.

Then he sinned again and said: O Lord, forgive me my sin. And He (glorified and exalted be He) said: My servant has committed a sin and has known that he has a Lord who forgives sins and punishes for them.

Then he sinned again and said: O Lord, forgive me my sin. And He (glorified and exalted be He) said: My servant has committed a sin and has known that he has a Lord who forgives sins and punishes for sins. Do what you wish, for I have forgiven you. It was related by Muslim (also by al-Bukhari).


Hadith Qudsi
 
Yes shaytaan is locked up, but your Qareen is not (intimate companion).

Scimi
 

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