Son Of Wisdom
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No one can imagine how much i feel lonely and Sad.
astaghfero Allah . few minutes ago I prayed salat Ishaa .then i looked to sky and said : where are you Allah ? why you always aren't there when i really need your help? why you leave me prey to evil people inflicting me harm and pain?
I know you are there. I've never had one single second in which i doubted you exist and you are watching over me. I know you just want me to go through these though experiences in life to test me and look if i can pass the test successfully.
But please Allah , These tests start to become so painful and hard . i can't guarantee i will pass them and succeed throughout. My enemy Satan is observing me .he only wait for those moments of weaknesses & despair when he attacks suddenly ,quickly and harshly and drive me to do mistakes that don't please you.
what matter happens , I will never stop loving & worshiping you my Lord. even though i'm so small in the eyes of people, i still hope that somewhere in your heavenly kingdom there is a place for a beggar like me.
Even a beggar like me might have a protecting Angel somewhere. A Golden heart Angel watching over Him.
astaghfero Allah . few minutes ago I prayed salat Ishaa .then i looked to sky and said : where are you Allah ? why you always aren't there when i really need your help? why you leave me prey to evil people inflicting me harm and pain?
I know you are there. I've never had one single second in which i doubted you exist and you are watching over me. I know you just want me to go through these though experiences in life to test me and look if i can pass the test successfully.
But please Allah , These tests start to become so painful and hard . i can't guarantee i will pass them and succeed throughout. My enemy Satan is observing me .he only wait for those moments of weaknesses & despair when he attacks suddenly ,quickly and harshly and drive me to do mistakes that don't please you.
what matter happens , I will never stop loving & worshiping you my Lord. even though i'm so small in the eyes of people, i still hope that somewhere in your heavenly kingdom there is a place for a beggar like me.
Even a beggar like me might have a protecting Angel somewhere. A Golden heart Angel watching over Him.