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I have masturbated for 15/16 years but like three times a week by watching porn. I am not proud of it. I have changed all my habits and stopped everything in my knowledge that I am doing wrong and started praying on time, reciting Quran everyday and understanding it and incorporating it in my life. I am monitoring all actions of my tongue, hands, private parts, eyes, ears heart and brain etc...
I am trying my best everyday now never to go back to major sins and trying my utmost best to follow seerah of prophet and doing as much zikr & dua, pray voluntary prayers, giving charity, respecting my parents, keep fast, saving up for Hajj. I am going to umrah soon.
I have no friends and i am not very smart. I... just want to try my best now to reach the highest heaven but coming across surah 23 verse 5 (surah Mu'minoon) 'and those who guard their private parts' and I have lied in my life too.
I am crying because I want to change now and leave those things permanently. I knew a about not going to jannah-ul-firdous if I masturbated and lied but I did it anyway on ocassion. I deeply regret it but never had company in my life. I am not a bad person but commmited lot of major sins. I am consistently asking for forgiveness day and night from allah to show me a sign that I can try and reach jannah-ul-firdous but I feel like even if I change I will never reach firdous because qurans mentions it.
I found this site so that I can get some advise from all of you who are 100 times better than me. Can I reach firdous by doing all of the above.
I am trying my best everyday now never to go back to major sins and trying my utmost best to follow seerah of prophet and doing as much zikr & dua, pray voluntary prayers, giving charity, respecting my parents, keep fast, saving up for Hajj. I am going to umrah soon.
I have no friends and i am not very smart. I... just want to try my best now to reach the highest heaven but coming across surah 23 verse 5 (surah Mu'minoon) 'and those who guard their private parts' and I have lied in my life too.
I am crying because I want to change now and leave those things permanently. I knew a about not going to jannah-ul-firdous if I masturbated and lied but I did it anyway on ocassion. I deeply regret it but never had company in my life. I am not a bad person but commmited lot of major sins. I am consistently asking for forgiveness day and night from allah to show me a sign that I can try and reach jannah-ul-firdous but I feel like even if I change I will never reach firdous because qurans mentions it.
I found this site so that I can get some advise from all of you who are 100 times better than me. Can I reach firdous by doing all of the above.