youngsister
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Salam Alakem
I am a 17 year old sister, i was born muslim however my parents are not really religious my mother brought me and because a lot of reason she didnt teach me about islam.
She always told me she would pay for someone to teach but that never happened, i went to the Mosque on a sunday for quran classes but the teacher istafullah put off even more he was rude, he was laughing at me because i didnt know a great deal, when it comes to prayers i never went again.
Now i am trying so hard really i got to islamic website try to find information about my religion i am teaching myself how to pray, alhamdullah i started covering. I just find it hard at times i am givin up music and so going out with friends who are muslims and covered but they attend cafe and bars where men and women are mixed. I am stopping all that, at time i cry at night because i feel so weak like the devil is getting the best of me i feel so useless when i see 5 years praying and i cant even do that, i cant rely on anybody. Is like my memory is blanked, i wil never give up though i know islam is the right religion i love and fear Allah swt i just wish at times i was smarter and much better.
I am a 17 year old sister, i was born muslim however my parents are not really religious my mother brought me and because a lot of reason she didnt teach me about islam.
She always told me she would pay for someone to teach but that never happened, i went to the Mosque on a sunday for quran classes but the teacher istafullah put off even more he was rude, he was laughing at me because i didnt know a great deal, when it comes to prayers i never went again.
Now i am trying so hard really i got to islamic website try to find information about my religion i am teaching myself how to pray, alhamdullah i started covering. I just find it hard at times i am givin up music and so going out with friends who are muslims and covered but they attend cafe and bars where men and women are mixed. I am stopping all that, at time i cry at night because i feel so weak like the devil is getting the best of me i feel so useless when i see 5 years praying and i cant even do that, i cant rely on anybody. Is like my memory is blanked, i wil never give up though i know islam is the right religion i love and fear Allah swt i just wish at times i was smarter and much better.