As already stated, this thread has been going in circles for some time now and it does not seem things are getting very far. May Allaah

reward all of those who have taken time and effort to try and get a confused person back on track. :ia: none of that is wasted; our duty is but to convey.
Strivingfordeen, I hope you will reflect on what numerous well-intentioned people have been telling you for so long. Please note that for some, it is their concern which has led to frustration. They are hurt by your mistake. Whatever question you have about Islam and whatever worry you have, all these people are ready to respond to it. When you are ready to strive, they will be waiting :ia:.
As for those who strive hard in Us (Our Cause), We will surely guide them to Our Paths (i.e. Allah's religion - Islamic Monotheism). And verily, Allah is with the Muhsinun (good doers).
[Al-Ankaboot: 69]
If anyone has anything further to add, they can contact the moderators :ia:. May Allaah

guide Strivingfordeen and keep us all steadfast, Aameen.
Thread closed.