AnonymousPoster
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wut im about to say is going to be...i dont know how to explain it but..its serious an dits driving me seriously crazy
ok,i live in a world filled with fitnah every where..were ever you turm you see the worst things ever!!!
ok have a great hate for gay lpl,y becuased ALLAH (SWA) hate stehm n has cursed them so therefore my hate is even stronger
now,i have alot of old assoiciates who are gay or bisexual..i feel so disgusting and bad for even typing those words...soi was and still am in complete shock and disgust
those of my friends who are not have grown to accept it or even think its cute!SubhanALLAAH..i dnt know how to explain what im going through
wut im about to say,May ALLAH (SWA) protect me from all of it,i have never said to anyone else
ive already went through the stage were shaydaan was walking all over me...serious waswas and all but now im going throug something else
its Ramadan and teh shaydaan seams to have a hold on me in some way
i dont understand becuase the shaydaan is locked up,so i dont know what to think
ok,let me jus say it
shadaan first kept telling me that it was ok to be "that word"(i dont want to say,so form now on gay is "that word"
then shadaan said its ok to be friends with them
then when i become relgious Alhamdulilah i grew to hate them to to the extreme n i still do
now the shaydaan keeps wispering the worse things..if you could only imagine...shaydeen keeps telling me that i am "that word"
there i said it...i try to ignore it..but it comes comming back
i hate those plp witha passion and n i guess the shaydaan sees i hate them so much so he tries to say all these things to me
what should i do
i always Pray to ALLAH (SWA) to get these bad thoughts and wispers but the y continue
how ironic..im listing to a lecture right now,n he saying that if one is patient then ALLAH (SWA) will help him with his affairs
ok,now i dont know hwat to do
i obvioiusly no that i am not n that i hat this plp so so so much..if we were allowe dto kill ithey would be firts on my list
SubhanALLAH its Ramadan and this is happening to me
this is the only Ramadan Alahamudlilah that ive been going to tarweeh every single day that i can,n teh saydaan seams to effect me thi syear then any othe ryear
i was thinking maybe cuz i hat etehm so much,their shaydaan is messing with me,making my life misrable
am i possessed? A'tho bILLHI mina shaydaani rajeem!
i dont know what to do
i havemet these Muslim girls at the Masjid i vulonteer at an dnow when eve im having a conversation the shaydaan comes and says all the things ive stated above
SubhanALLAH..plz have me in ur Duas seriously
in the mean time any advice?
imean anything would help
JazaALLAH Khair
