Im 21 now and I dont pray, fast or do anything islamic. Ive started drinking, smoking all sorts of things and done many things that I would never have done before. I dont see any point of praying. It never got me anything.
It may seem that worshipping Allah hasn't got you anywhere. But of course that's not true. The fruit of our good deeds isn't always given in this world. How do you know that when you prayed, a magnificent house wasn't built for you in Jannah? How do you know that worshipping your Creator hadn't qualified you for Jannatul-Firdaus? You're only 21. How do you know what heaps of rewards and benefits you would've achieved in the future?
Good deeds are like seeds. They don't always flower straightaway. Some may flower in this life, yet some in the here-after. How can you think there's no point when Allah even rewards the intention we make to do a good deed? Personally I'd rather be rewarded for my good deeds in the here-after when I'll have nothing else to save me from the torture of Hell-Fire. Wouldn't you?
I dont think god loves me..im starting to doubt his existance. Im not friends with any people who pray or fast...most of my friends are like me.
No! The people you call friends are your worst enemies. True friends would be concerned about your life now and in the here-after, not lead you to destruction. You say you doubt God's existence, na udhu billah! If you allow that doubt to turn you into a total disbeliever then imagine what'll happen when you die and all of a sudden you are facing God? What will you do? What will you say? Nothing! You will be a total loser. Think about it and read this thread.
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Its not that I have any problems in life, I just dont know what I want. i dont see the point of religion. It only breeds hate and violence.
And drinking and doing all sorts of other things doesn't create violence and corruption in society? How many drunks batter their wives, get into fights, run over/kill innocent people and destroy lives by having drunken one-night stands and spread STD's and Aids? How many pregnancies result of such stupidity and how many abortions are carried out to get rid of unwanted children? How many druggies steal others property to fund their habit and kill/attack people cuz they were high on drugs? Those are just small examples. Are people doing this because of religion? You say religion creates hatred and violence but you don't see what the lack of religion has created - a Hell on Earth! The war between the East & West has nothing to do with religion but greed and politics.
You said you don't know what you want. How about starting with educating yourself with the facts. On a deeper level, you may not have any problems in your life (although I think you have many), why not make yourself capable of helping those who are less fortunate. There are non muslims who are working to help the needy, so even if you see it as your muslim duty, there's still no excuse not to do it for the sake of humanity.
I don't expect you to be a deep thinker at your age, but I suggest you start reading the Quran with understanding and find your way to the Truth. A person can offer salah and still remain ignorant. The Quran is your Guide to the Truth. Why do you think more and more people are reverting all the time? Even non muslim scientists who've studied the Quran confirm that such knowledge could have only come a Divine Source. And there's you a muslim, saying you doubt God exists? You can't give a builder bricks and mortar and expect him to build a house if he refuses to use them. In the same way, if you want to build yourself a better life in this life and the akhirah, you have to start using the tools Allah has provided. And that is the Quran and sunnah of the Prophet (PBUH). May Allah have mercy on you and guide you to the right Path.
