I believe in the tenets of Islam, love God very much. However, there is one thing that I'm struggling with...
Why is it that I don't feel refreshed when I watch Islamic sermons on youtube, for example. Also, I was in an Islamic class at mosque last weekend and also felt the same way. I come away with a tense feeling, not a spiritually pure, relaxed, happy feeling. Like when I watch the videos, looking into the speakers eyes, I feel even their eyes aren't lit up with peace and love, and their tone of voice are usually very automatic sounding, tense. This sensation I'm getting is honestly the main reason I have held back. The idea is to surrender to God everything, so shouldn't folks have a lighter shinier disposition? Where is the joy and enthusiasm?
If it's there, I pray Allah swt unconvers my eyes and opens my spirit further.
Why is it that I don't feel refreshed when I watch Islamic sermons on youtube, for example. Also, I was in an Islamic class at mosque last weekend and also felt the same way. I come away with a tense feeling, not a spiritually pure, relaxed, happy feeling. Like when I watch the videos, looking into the speakers eyes, I feel even their eyes aren't lit up with peace and love, and their tone of voice are usually very automatic sounding, tense. This sensation I'm getting is honestly the main reason I have held back. The idea is to surrender to God everything, so shouldn't folks have a lighter shinier disposition? Where is the joy and enthusiasm?
If it's there, I pray Allah swt unconvers my eyes and opens my spirit further.