Allah has made you special sis. Always remember that. He chose you and gave you such a condition so that he may bring you closer to him. He chose you as his special slave so grab this opportunity and strive to be the closest to him. Entrust ALL your affairs with Allah. Put ALL your reliance in him and know that he will NEVER let you down. He will give you peace and contentment in your heart that NO money or riches can buy. He will give you the sweetness of imaan that people would wage wars over if they knew about it.
May Allah give you the best of this world and the next. Ameen
JazakAllah khayr for your reply Brother. I am very content regarding my illness, al hamdulillah. I am not feeling hard done by in any way at all. I never have felt I am being punished. Far from it, I thank Allah for His mercy to purify me of my sins in this world, and I don't like it when people make dua for my well being. I see it as losing a great source expiation of my sins. I don't know why I come across like I am complaining when I am not using words to that effect? To be truthful I avoid telling people that I feel very lucky and blessed in case they think I'm nuts. I think my brain works differently as I give information only for the purpose of explaining myself or my situation better, not as a means of making complaints, if that makes sense insha Allah.
HayyakAllah dear Brother. Ameen.