Let us continue the healing.....

[flowergarden]

Greetings and peace be with you flowergarden;

You can never forget the past, at some point you will come to terms with the past.

Failure is only failure when you give up on the mercy of Allah.

Every blessing

Eric

Salaam Brother Eric!
God bless you.

Well as an update, I honestly feel like a failure, I feel unworthy of Allah's blessings. That is so bad to say, but the past days I have been sad!

They say Allah test those he loves, and people tell me Allah loves me, and I feel so honored when someone says that, however, I feel like I am just bad. I feel unworthy of saying I am a virgin, I feel like I am so studpid for my mistakes, I feel so blue. I feel like I am never going to heal, and that hurts, it hurts not being able to heal or talk to someone, and just hiding the pain.

Thank you all for your support. It helps me see some sunshine.

:wa: Wa alaikum Salaam!

 

[Who Am I?]

Salaam Brother Eric!
God bless you.

Well as an update, I honestly feel like a failure, I feel unworthy of Allah's blessings. That is so bad to say, but the past days I have been sad!

They say Allah test those he loves, and people tell me Allah loves me, and I feel so honored when someone says that, however, I feel like I am just bad. I feel unworthy of saying I am a virgin, I feel like I am so studpid for my mistakes, I feel so blue. I feel like I am never going to heal, and that hurts, it hurts not being able to heal or talk to someone, and just hiding the pain.

Thank you all for your support. It helps me see some sunshine.

:wa: Wa alaikum Salaam!

Just last night I was down and depressed. I was feeling lonely. Sometimes I don't think I will ever be able to get over my past and become a better man. It seems like I will be single and alone forever. Sometimes I feel like just giving up and going back to my old life.

"You'll never change. You're not going to be a better man. This is who you are, so just accept that," is what I hear in my head sometimes. I have even heard voices telling me to give up Islam and go back to my old way of life. "You'll never be able to do this. You can't even pray once a day and you think you can do it 5 times a day? You really think you can memorize the Qur'an when you can't even read or speak Arabic?"

I will admit there are some things that I disagree with about Islam. But I still think it is the True Path. I still I am going the right way.

Anyway sister, my point is that if I can do it, so can you.