Vitor Blitz
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Sorry if this is a little long. I have been regestered on this site for sometime, only never posted. So here's a story as to my relationship with the site
Well let me start off by saying Asalaamwalaikum. I initially came here because I was an angry individual and sinning. My grades were slipping and upsetting me. I felt as if Allah had left me. Also I was developing an addiction to porn. But I somehow felt even in my anger towards Allah, that infact He was the only one who could save me.
So with this seemingly supernatural force pushing me inside, I went out to the internet seeking Islamic advice. I used this site as a launchpad to reignite my own faith in Allah. But after searching I found helpful advice towards making repatence, yet no results. So three days later, I was still seeking but sinning nevertheless. And then I feel as if Allah gave me my help.
As I turned off the computer late one night, I was feeling very depressed that I hadnt seen any difference in my situation. I thought to myself, 'I am back to square one, Allah HELP ME!'. I was about to totally give up when I turned on the TV and saw something. It was the Ultimate FIghter. I was very intrigued by it. Right there I made a 180 degree turn in my life. So the very day I continued to pray (even more infact! :giggling: ) and researching Brazilian Jiu Jitsu and Thai Kickboxing.
The next week I went to a Brazilian Jiu Jitsu school and the instructor told me to to engage with another student who was an advanced white belt and much more physical than me. Right before we began to fight I asked Allah for the strength to help me win. And with virtually no experience I made him tap out. The instructor could not believe me. He said I was showing the skill level of a bluebelt (second level). So with that I truely felt free from Shaitan's shackles for the first time. I like to say that now I have not layed eyes on porn since before watchign the Ultimate Fighter for the first time (Jan 05) and have no intention of doing so.
I have full faith in Allah now. In fact when I pray salaat, I do the same number of nafl as the actual rakaats. Pray for me brothers and sisters that I continue on this path. Thank you all for your help and reading.
Well let me start off by saying Asalaamwalaikum. I initially came here because I was an angry individual and sinning. My grades were slipping and upsetting me. I felt as if Allah had left me. Also I was developing an addiction to porn. But I somehow felt even in my anger towards Allah, that infact He was the only one who could save me.
So with this seemingly supernatural force pushing me inside, I went out to the internet seeking Islamic advice. I used this site as a launchpad to reignite my own faith in Allah. But after searching I found helpful advice towards making repatence, yet no results. So three days later, I was still seeking but sinning nevertheless. And then I feel as if Allah gave me my help.
As I turned off the computer late one night, I was feeling very depressed that I hadnt seen any difference in my situation. I thought to myself, 'I am back to square one, Allah HELP ME!'. I was about to totally give up when I turned on the TV and saw something. It was the Ultimate FIghter. I was very intrigued by it. Right there I made a 180 degree turn in my life. So the very day I continued to pray (even more infact! :giggling: ) and researching Brazilian Jiu Jitsu and Thai Kickboxing.
The next week I went to a Brazilian Jiu Jitsu school and the instructor told me to to engage with another student who was an advanced white belt and much more physical than me. Right before we began to fight I asked Allah for the strength to help me win. And with virtually no experience I made him tap out. The instructor could not believe me. He said I was showing the skill level of a bluebelt (second level). So with that I truely felt free from Shaitan's shackles for the first time. I like to say that now I have not layed eyes on porn since before watchign the Ultimate Fighter for the first time (Jan 05) and have no intention of doing so.
I have full faith in Allah now. In fact when I pray salaat, I do the same number of nafl as the actual rakaats. Pray for me brothers and sisters that I continue on this path. Thank you all for your help and reading.
bless ya 
