lost hope, don't know what to do!

[AnonymousPoster]

I'm in a whole load of crap, I keep screwing up then everything goes wrong and I just feel like giving up at everything. I just can't seem to get along with my mum, astagfirullah. She has so many bad things about her and I just can't control myself and tolerate her, thats when everything goes wrong. When I end up disrespecting her, I just give up hope at everything, I start getting problems from everywhere. I know she can't change, but I'm trying and continuously praying to Allah swt to help me overcome this major sin. I just don't know what to do, life is just screwing up for me, I could get kicked out of the house any day, I might not even get into uni, I need a new part time job and I just can't get one, my emaan is unstable just going up and down all the bloody time. Things are all going downhill

Whenever I try to work towards something or acheive something- I end up disrespecting my mum, and then just give up at everything, I just feel that theres no way Allah swt will ever help me, because i'm being punished,
Thats theres no hope. Then all these bad thoughts just come in my head: about all the bad things that have happened to me, that my whole family is cursed and unlucky, that good things are never meant to happen to me and that i'm just predestined to have bad things happening to me and that I'll never become successful and i'll never get any peace in this life or the next

I just want to give up hope and feel like dying, I've had enough of this **** life, I don't know what to do. I need some serious help brothers and sisters

Its just this last sin that I can't overcome and its such a major one, If I could sort this out I think things would change a hell of alot - but that would be a miracle, and its been too long and I haven't got time and if can't do something now then I think my whole life will be screwed up, all my ambitions just gone to drain

I need some serious advice

Jazakhallah

 

[AnonymousPoster]

Just one line from your signature,

'Prayer lies the Coolness of my Eyes and the Peace of my Mind'

Sorry I know its not much

 

[Zahida]

I felt sad at reading your post.
Everone makes mistakes little one and if we learn from them, repent from them and refrain from repeating them, that makes us better people.

Your first step is to repent from this sin you mention. Repent, don't do it again and leave it in the hands of Allah. Allah is all-knowing and forgiving.

The situation with your mumis a difficult one as you do not say much what it is that she does to upset you so much. However as a mother and a daughter i would advise you to still show your mumrespect and love no matter what. Heaven lies in the feet of your mother. Your mother is your pillar of stregnth.

Every human being is different. There are things about other people that i don't like, but i am certain That there are things about me that people don't like either, but it's all about tolerance. People have different characteristics and traits........... I am sure your mum is not all that bad, you are probably just being negative.

Be positive and take the time to reflect on your relationship with your mother. Go back to your childhood, your school days and think about all the good times you have shared. Then little one my advice would be to build that relationship again. I am POSITIVE
that you can do it.:bump1: