First all welcome to the forums and i hope u meet lots of good sisters n make lots of good friends and benefit InshahAllah
Know that u are doing the right thing , may Allah reward u , and give u more n more tawfeeq n give you the understanding of the deen , as in a hadeeth the Prphet States " Whome ever Allah wants to be good to , He gives him understanding of the deen"
May Allah increase u in His Love , Love of His prophet Sala lahu alihi wa sallam , Love of the thigs that drw us near to them , Love of the here after and an eternal life full of happiness n blessing , where sorrow n grieve n no problems what so ever will even touch you ,
Know that Allah is sufficent for you InshahAllah , n yes InshahAllah u are doing the right thing , n Who knows may be u will be the reason n cause for lots of ur previpous friends to come to the right path , By Allah sister the life of this world is not only too short , it is so temporary..
I will only quote a coyuple of verses from Surah Al hadid , which is a beautiful Surah
Allah Subhanahu Wa Taala Says
Know that the life of this world is only play and amusement, pomp and mutual boasting among you, and rivalry in respect of wealth and children, as the likeness of vegetation after rain, thereof the growth is pleasing to the tiller; afterwards it dries up and you see it turning yellow; then it becomes straw. But in the Hereafter (there is) a severe torment (for the disbelievers, evil-doers), and (there is) Forgiveness from Allâh and (His) Good Pleasure (for the believers, good-doers), whereas the life of this world is only a deceiving enjoyment
Race one with another in hastening towards Forgiveness from your Lord (Allâh), and towards Paradise, the width whereof is as the width of heaven and earth, prepared for those who believe in Allâh and His Messengers. That is the Grace of Allâh which He bestows on whom He pleases. And Allâh is the Owner of Great Bounty.
And also as far as ur frineds n family go , i quote from the same Surah
Has not the time come for the hearts of those who believe to be affected by Allâh's Reminder (this Qur'ân), and that which has been revealed of the truth, lest they become as those who received the Scripture before (i.e. Jews and Christians), and the term was prolonged for them and so their hearts were hardened? And many of them were Fâsiqûn (rebellious, disobedient to Allâh).
and Also from the Surah Az Zumar , I hope the time comes for thems oon , The guidance from Allah n Light of righteousness comes soon
Say: "O 'Ibâdî (My slaves) who have transgressed against themselves (by committing evil deeds and sins)! Despair not of the Mercy of Allâh, verily Allâh forgives all sins. Truly, He is Oft-Forgiving, Most Merciful[].
54. "And turn in repentance and in obedience with true Faith (Islâmic Monotheism) to your Lord and submit to Him, (in Islâm), before the torment comes upon you, then you will not be helped.
55. "And follow the best of that which is sent down to you from your Lord (i.e. this Qur'ân, do what it orders you to do and keep away from what it forbids), before the torment comes on you suddenly while you perceive not!"
56. Lest a person should say: "Alas, my grief that I was undutiful to Allâh (i.e. I have not done what Allâh has ordered me to do), and I was indeed among those who mocked
57. Or (lest) he should say: "If only Allâh had guided me, I should indeed have been among the Muttaqûn (pious and righteous persons - see V.2:2)."
58. Or (lest) he should say when he sees the torment: "If only I had another chance (to return to the world) then I should indeed be among the Muhsinûn (good-doers - see V.2:112)."
May Allah guide us all , i gotta run InshahAllah migt come back to give some advise
But im soo happy to know that Allah is guiding u , n also its sad to see what u are facing , InshahAllah keep ur head up and keep faith in Allah and keep asking Him more n more guidance n may Allah bless u.
I would suggest to make the Quran ur constant companion, after al its the words of our LOrd the Book of our lord
Ibn Abi Mulaykah narrated:
"'Ikrimah bin Abi Jahl used to press the Mushaf to his face and cry, saying: "The Book of my Lord! The Words of my Lord!""
Assalam O Alikum
