All Praise to Allah, Lord of the worlds. Master of the day of judgement, hearer of all supplications. Peace and Blessing of Allah be upon on beloved and humble Prophet MUhammad, His Family and His Companions.
Dear Sister in Islam, First of all, I am really sorry for you loss; May Allah bestow upon you his blessing and give to strength to recover from the tragic loss of your child. Sister, I know many people have consolidated you in this regards, but at the end you have to realise that it is with the knowledge of Allah and Allah alone to put you in such a test and Allah rewards the one who is among As sabiroon ( those who are patient). I will narrate to you of the story of the Holy Prophet when he was on his jouney to Holy Ancesions to the Heavens. Upon reaching the seventh heaven, Prophet Muhammad narrates :
"I came upon a person all drowned in Light. He was seated upon a throne in an attitude of awesome dignity, and before him was a multitude of little children. I asked Jibra’il who was this person of such light, majesty and awe, and who were all the children with him. The angel answered me,
‘This is your great grandfather Ibrahim. He loves you and the entire nation that believes in you. He once prayed to the Lord of the Worlds that he might be of service to your nation, and the Lord heard his supplication. He gave him all these little children who are the little boys and girls from your nation who die before reaching adulthood. Allah Almighty has entrusted Ibrahim with their upbringing and education. Until the Day of Judgment, he will be instructing them in proper behavior and training their minds in the useful sciences. After having perfected their schooling, on the Day of Gathering he will lead them forth and bring them to the site of Resurrection. There, before the Lord’s Holy Presence, he will entreat Him with these words: ‘Oh my Lord, here are the youngsters of the nation of Your Beloved Muhammad
Z who died before reaching the age of maturity. According to Your order and command, I have taught and trained them in all useful branches of knowledge, and brought them before Thy Majestic Throne. Thine is all kindness, favor and grace.’
“At this invocation, the Almighty Lord will reply with the full glory of His Majesty, ‘Oh children, go and enter the Gardens of Paradise.’
- Thereupon, these children will reply, ‘Oh our Lord, by Thy Grace and Thy Munificence, let our parents go with us!’
- The Almighty Lord will again direct His Divine Speech at them, and say,
- ‘You have nothing to answer for, go and enter into Paradise forthwith; as for your parents, they are accountable and there are things they have to answer for.’
- Again, these children entreat the Lord, ‘During their lives in the material world, we caused them sorrow through our absence;
- now, by the vastness of Thine Mercy which floods the universal expanse, let us be the cause of happiness for them.’
- Upon this plea, the All-Merciful and Beneficent Lord accepts the children’s supplications and addresses them, saying, ‘Go then and take from the wine of the spring of Kawthar and give your parents to drink therefrom.’
Sister, Imagine how lucky you are that Our Holy prophet's Great Grand father Prophet Ibrahim is upbringing and educating your child. Therefore, my dear sister in Islam be patient and Pray Allah Subhanahu wa Ta'alah to give you strength. It is natural in these hard times, that you may feel grieve about your tragic loss and it takes time to heal. I hope my answer helped you in your course of life.
Jazakumullahu khair