My father has brought shame upon me and my family and I want to committ suicide.....

[Mustafa16]

I've done something horrible....I was going to create a fake facebook account under a girl's name, give the login info to my friend and have him ask my crush if she likes me or not, pretending to me my cousin.....I felt horribly ashamed and had a panic attack and told my friend not to do it, and he agreed.....I also deactivated the account......but my father, after calling me (he's divorced) interrogated me about whether or not I called anyone that day. I told him I called my mom while she was a t work, and he got mad, and interrogated me about why, so I told him.....he told me he has been writing a file about my activities with girls and that he will add it to the file and send it to the girl's father and all of the men he knows in the Turkish community.....he also threatened to have a conference call about how to manage my talking to namahram girls and trying to add them on social media.......he has brought shame upon me, I have brought shame upon myself, he and I have brought shame upon my divorced mother, and I want to kill myself but I know it is haram.....I want to hurt myself, but I think that might be haram....pls help me.....im crying right now like a baby.....I don't think ill ever get married at this rate, like my father said.

 

[*charisma*]

Assalamu Alaikum

Bro take a deep breath and relax. What you planned to do is wrong, but not uncommon, and you need to stop degrading yourself. Perhaps your dad is saying all of these things to keep you out of trouble. I don't really understand the situation, it's kind of unclear..what does your mom have to do with anything?

Anyhow, you need to calm down and seek refuge from shaytan.