glitterprincess
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Al salam alikom
Hi i am a moslim woman and i feel like i need help and someone to talk to and i hoped someone here could help me so i was a muslim by name was born a muslim but never was really interested in islam that much i just knew islam was good eventhough some stuff made me think here and there and that allah is fair and i never used to pray i just became so sad and depressed and at one point i started saying horrible things like why is god doing this to me and why is this happening but something changed in me and i grow closes to him all of a sudden before i grew closer i even almost comitted shirk asta'fr allah but i grew closer everthing was perfect i prayed for almost half an hour almost crying everytime i felt like i never felt before until i got weak agian luckly i am nit as miss guided as i used to still pray but i sin so much and i do so much horrible stuff i want to return to that amazing feeling that felling that i am close to him and i want to repent i feel like i deserve nothing but hell but i dont want it i try to repent but i keep falling into sin and my iman isnt doing much better i just want him to forgive me and i want to return to him and never return to that horrible state i am in but i dont know how I know i sin but believe me i dont want to stay this way not after he guided me i am not the same and i dont know know what to do
Hi i am a moslim woman and i feel like i need help and someone to talk to and i hoped someone here could help me so i was a muslim by name was born a muslim but never was really interested in islam that much i just knew islam was good eventhough some stuff made me think here and there and that allah is fair and i never used to pray i just became so sad and depressed and at one point i started saying horrible things like why is god doing this to me and why is this happening but something changed in me and i grow closes to him all of a sudden before i grew closer i even almost comitted shirk asta'fr allah but i grew closer everthing was perfect i prayed for almost half an hour almost crying everytime i felt like i never felt before until i got weak agian luckly i am nit as miss guided as i used to still pray but i sin so much and i do so much horrible stuff i want to return to that amazing feeling that felling that i am close to him and i want to repent i feel like i deserve nothing but hell but i dont want it i try to repent but i keep falling into sin and my iman isnt doing much better i just want him to forgive me and i want to return to him and never return to that horrible state i am in but i dont know how I know i sin but believe me i dont want to stay this way not after he guided me i am not the same and i dont know know what to do
says in the Qur'an, Say: "O My servants who have transgressed against themselves! Despair not of the mercy of Allah, verily, Allah forgives all sins. Truly, He is Oft-Forgiving, Most Merciful." (53) "And turn in repentance (and in obedience with true faith) to your Lord and submit to Him before the torment comes upon you, (and) then you will not be helped.