glitterprincess
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Al salam alikom
Hi i am a moslim woman and i feel like i need help and someone to talk to and i hoped someone here could help me so i was a muslim by name was born a muslim but never was really interested in islam that much i just knew islam was good eventhough some stuff made me think here and there and that allah is fair and i never used to pray i just became so sad and depressed and at one point i started saying horrible things like why is god doing this to me and why is this happening but something changed in me and i grow closes to him all of a sudden before i grew closer i even almost comitted shirk asta'fr allah but i grew closer everthing was perfect i prayed for almost half an hour almost crying everytime i felt like i never felt before until i got weak agian luckly i am nit as miss guided as i used to still pray but i sin so much and i do so much horrible stuff i want to return to that amazing feeling that felling that i am close to him and i want to repent i feel like i deserve nothing but hell but i dont want it i try to repent but i keep falling into sin and my iman isnt doing much better i just want him to forgive me and i want to return to him and never return to that horrible state i am in but i dont know how I know i sin but believe me i dont want to stay this way not after he guided me i am not the same and i dont know know what to do
Hi i am a moslim woman and i feel like i need help and someone to talk to and i hoped someone here could help me so i was a muslim by name was born a muslim but never was really interested in islam that much i just knew islam was good eventhough some stuff made me think here and there and that allah is fair and i never used to pray i just became so sad and depressed and at one point i started saying horrible things like why is god doing this to me and why is this happening but something changed in me and i grow closes to him all of a sudden before i grew closer i even almost comitted shirk asta'fr allah but i grew closer everthing was perfect i prayed for almost half an hour almost crying everytime i felt like i never felt before until i got weak agian luckly i am nit as miss guided as i used to still pray but i sin so much and i do so much horrible stuff i want to return to that amazing feeling that felling that i am close to him and i want to repent i feel like i deserve nothing but hell but i dont want it i try to repent but i keep falling into sin and my iman isnt doing much better i just want him to forgive me and i want to return to him and never return to that horrible state i am in but i dont know how I know i sin but believe me i dont want to stay this way not after he guided me i am not the same and i dont know know what to do