^ u sound 250% normal !
keep it up, first try failed, 2nd tries jus waitin to happen ! keep us updated
no thanks, my teacher already told me how normal i am.:raging:
jazakallah khair
You did great though. Maybe try one more time. Why dont you recite the Quran or if not then do Dhikr while walking or doing things. That sure will take your mind off the radio. Plus turn the knob of sincerity to max. Make dua as if you want it to happen and Allah will listen. He is the best listener.
i do recite quran, and i do feel sincere in my prayers and all, now. i never really do but now i do.
u know truemuslim, i would try till I succeed. I would try to till i killed the shaitan inside me. or at least ove power it that it does not come between the things that are prescribed and i know that they are wrong. today i heared music - i would get enraged on myself try again again and again and again till i beat the requirement of 'want to hear it'. that is what is known as jihaad which allah subhanawa tallah loves. and finally allah will love you.
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a small example
u should be a bit tactful with yourself. like i realized that tea was not good as i got addicted to it as drugs. if i didnt had it my head would go mad with such a bad headache i cant describe and i just wanted tea.i decided a clear no to myself. as it was creating acidity and lot other stuff. then i tortured myself for 1 week. whenever i felt like drinking tea specially in the mornings when the head ache was too high i had kept a cup of tea (previous days) with that bad smelling coming out of it - it was the left over in it. whenever i felt that i use to say want to have tea - have it and try smelling that bad odour. i would repel it like nothing else. i kept doing it for 1 week- then i started an inclination towards coffee - i thought that it was more harmful. alhamdulillah ramadan started and now i am without coffee and tea.
then i found out why i need tea. i wanted that major kick off at work in the morning. its like we dont understand what our body wants to say. its like early morning after 1 hour of travel i expect to work immididately - not happening. so i made it a point like every morning doing some work which will freshen me up. like anything uploading videos. or writing something. anything. sparing 15 minutes makes u freshen up for the whole day. similarly find out why u want music - what is it - that u can complete ur body's demand in a halal way. as our aim is not to kill ourself but just to remove the bad habits. this depends on person to person. u might find urslef revolting too much and at times u might even get bugged, but its ok those r the tantrums ur self plays - as it loves to be in ease. u have to get hold of yourself make it do in a calm manner.- aah its too much of advice. but above all - just want u too know - that u r important .
take care
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aw sis jazakallah khair, that was very useful :statisfie thanksss.
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actually after i broke my "not listen to music" thing, i actually surprisingly never broke it again, but right now im getting the urrrrge to redownload chris brown :raging::raging::raging: '
and actualy for the first time ever in my life i actually prayed and felt like the prayer worked. like allah excepted and everything, i prayed some night prayers the first night at like 1am and end at about 3am, and the first prayer my heart felt so much like allah loves me , which i never feel. then it wears off and i go again, and again and again, and so on, then my eyes filled with tears, because its the first time i ever felt that way for real :statisfie in the end, i make my dua, first i go wit first four, then i go with the rest.
they say lailatul qadr shud be on the 26th, but i dont believe they would know when it is at all, every night i'll make sincere, and the past two nights i've made sincere. (i think)
Jazakumallah khair everyone because whenever im about to listen to music or sumthin i remember the exact words of some of u , and i actually am able to resist a bit. :exhausted:statisfie
