My physical self struggles to bear calamity after calamity

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...the most miserable people in the world among the people of Paradise will come on the Day of Resurrection to be dipped in Paradise, then it will be said: O son of Adam, did you see any hardship? Did you have any distress? He will say: No, by Allah, my Lord! I did not once see hardship or distress.” (Muslim)

Abu Huraira reported: The Messenger of Allah, peace and blessings be upon him, said, “When Allah completed the creation, He wrote in His book with Him upon the Throne: Verily, My mercy prevails over My wrath.” (Bukhari & Muslim)

Those who suffered the most in this life will completely forget absolutely all of their suffering as soon as they see al-Jannah. As great as Allah's Wrath truly is, His Mercy is far greater. No matter how long we tarry in this life, even if for 100 years or more, it is not but the blink of an eye and then all of our suffering in this Dunya will be forgotten. This life is truly short. It seems like a long time, but it truly isn't.

Anyway, my words are of little value. I myself have no hope except from the words of Allah and His Prophet (Salalahu 'Alaihi wa Salaam). If it weren't for these words I would be the most cynical of the cynics. I have abandoned hope in this lowly, miserable pathetic life a very long time ago. I am seriously waiting for the Day of Judgement, while in the meantime trying desperately to keep my own heart, tongue and limbs from engaging in that which displeases Him and trying to stay busy doing any good deed whatsoever that could earn His Forgiveness.
@SoldierAmatUllah
No one can worship Allah on Fear alone. The Quran and Sunnah are full of Hope. More hope than anywhere else. Pay closer attention to the innumerable ayat and hadith that show the Greatness of Allah's Mercy. I just showed that His Mercy is even greater than His Wrath, even though His Wrath is Great indeed. I think that shaitan has seen that you fear Allah and is trying to emphasize this while making you forget His Rahmah. Shaitan is a loser and has despaired of Allah's Mercy and wants you to be a loser like him even though you are much closer to Allah's Mercy than he is.

Allah said in a hadith Qudsi:

Abu Sa’id al-Khudri reported: The Messenger of Allah, peace and blessings be upon him, said, “Satan said: By Your might, O Lord, I will continue to mislead the children of Adam, as long as their souls are in their bodies. The Lord said: By My might and majesty, I will continue to forgive them, as long as they seek My forgiveness.” (Ahmed)
@SoldierAmatUllah
If you are terrified of Allah's Wrath and Anger, then Ask Allah to forgive you. Ask for His Forgiveness again and again. Allah said He Will keep forgiving us as long as we keep asking. One of the Sunnah Duas that we say: "Oh Allah, you are the most forgiving and you Love to Forgive so Forgive me"

Say that dua frequently and constantly remind yourself of Allah's Rahmah in the next life especially (as this life was always meant to be a cruel barren wasteland) and Allah Will surely forgive you and protect you from His Wrath.

Seriously, I know of so many stories past and present of people whom I am very sure are far worse than you who sought Allah's Forgiveness and became of those who earned Allah's Love. Put your hope in Allah.

May Allah Forgive us and overlook our wrongdoings
Ameen
 
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Actually its that crippling fear of Allah that reaches me at weird times & mocking feelings like he mocks at kuffar in Quran

Its all very closely checked by me & belief in this qadr ,that "what if its hell" After all,iys also very frightful.Im aging & ofcourse death is coming near- after shedding tears & long duas,loads of durood,I'm only triggered to sins - everything brings torture,so I seen people without much deen but end good.I want to relax too...I'm about 34,I'm not married I'm having fears of hereafter- the only good thing left is that I visit linkedin and read,post & talks about deen....i have made a little consultancy with a linkedin member and I try to keep optimism....in my heart & for others sufferings, posts pieces from various places,connecting with deen in someway or other.I spend time in learning and sharing my experiences etc.


This is one way how I escape.As I said,people are v beloved to Allah even they don't wear hijab and make bf's -then they are doing little good deeds (no pride,just complain why am I forced to obey and obey when future is so bleak?)and whoa- Support,love& love of God,despite no obedience.This is injustice as I'm gifted with a 1000 dunya trials & a lack deen trials and forced to obey?Then sending me to tortures and bad end feelings,thrown hate & my body starts to shiver because of ALLAH!!!

Why He picks up on every little sin I do for which I always make up to?Not an angel to never sin or always be an cute decent kid

So ain't I crazy that I'm already uptodeen(no kibr please don't misunderstand)and yet I suffer hate and Mockery of God on me as He mocks at Kuffar,for not letting me in a good life - neither Deen nor letting me proceed in dunya.(Just that all chances whether education or wealth,job,marriage)everything gets ruined - And I was promised THIS THAT includes marriage that I think became a source of fitna for me
FROM 21st year to 34 years- no guy that fulfills basic criteria has reached my place...And it used to be for someone known (i knew him from Syria)but then it changed into something that's horrifying.Im tired- why I don't get married?I understand it maybe qadr but so beautiful dreams since 21st year of my life,all these years- I can't believe how evil n ugly this trial seems I've.


My worst decision was my covering head at 15,then worst of decisions in 16th year an Islamic forum that finished me

Duhayma Fitan knocked me down!

Hell..can I give up Hijab for sometime & breathe?Try to be easy?because this isn't how I'm being in the right track even!

P.S:I have tonnes of sacrifices for ALLAH,tonnes of good deeds,tonnes of aiding His Religion,Tonnes of alot - so where did and do they go for which He gave me dreams ?Tonnes , No lies,all this is correct,not telling for riyaa!

Excuse me for my tone!

I'm tired & sick of ever micro second torture...I can't survive without taking high dosage of sleeping pills without my familys knowledge.No one can let go of me unless they let mevi for rehabs.Its all due to fears & 24/7 torment.I can't go out without high dosaged.

I'm done with suicides attempts too in order He saves me from any sort of kufr - 8 times attempts for Him & 2 for my family to be relieved.


I gave Him best of my life's years & love respect ❤? What He gave me!

Azaab!Humiliation!Regardless!Oppression and hopelessness!
No one deserves this kinda life even not mine worst enemy
 
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SoldierAmatUllah said:
Actually its that crippling fear of Allah that reaches me at weird times & mocking feelings like he mocks at kuffar in Quran

Its all very closely checked by me & belief in this qadr ,that "what if its hell" After all,iys also very frightful.Im aging & ofcourse death is coming near- after shedding tears & long duas,loads of durood,I'm only triggered to sins - everything brings torture,so I seen people without much deen but end good.I want to relax too...I'm about 34,I'm not married I'm having fears of hereafter- the only good thing left is that I visit linkedin and read,post & talks about deen....i have made a little consultancy with a linkedin member and I try to keep optimism....in my heart & for others sufferings, posts pieces from various places,connecting with deen in someway or other.I spend time in learning and sharing my experiences etc.


This is one way how I escape.As I said,people are v beloved to Allah even they don't wear hijab and make bf's -then they are doing little good deeds (no pride,just complain why am I forced to obey and obey when future is so bleak?)and whoa- Support,love& love of God,despite no obedience.This is injustice as I'm gifted with a 1000 dunya trials & a lack deen trials and forced to obey?Then sending me to tortures and bad end feelings,thrown hate & my body starts to shiver because of ALLAH!!!

Why He picks up on every little sin I do for which I always make up to?Not an angel to never sin or always be an cute decent kid

So ain't I crazy that I'm already uptodeen(no kibr please don't misunderstand)and yet I suffer hate and Mockery of God on me as He mocks at Kuffar,for not letting me in a good life - neither Deen nor letting me proceed in dunya.(Just that all chances whether education or wealth,job,marriage)everything gets ruined - And I was promised THIS THAT includes marriage that I think became a source of fitna for me
FROM 21st year to 34 years- no guy that fulfills basic criteria has reached my place...And it used to be for someone known (i knew him from Syria)but then it changed into something that's horrifying.Im tired- why I don't get married?I understand it maybe qadr but so beautiful dreams since 21st year of my life,all these years- I can't believe how evil n ugly this trial seems I've.


My worst decision was my covering head at 15,then worst of decisions in 16th year an Islamic forum that finished me

Duhayma Fitan knocked me down!

Hell..can I give up Hijab for sometime & breathe?Try to be easy?because this isn't how I'm being in the right track even!

P.S:I have tonnes of sacrifices for ALLAH,tonnes of good deeds,tonnes of aiding His Religion,Tonnes of alot - so where did and do they go for which He gave me dreams ?Tonnes , No lies,all this is correct,not telling for riyaa!

Excuse me for my tone!

I'm tired & sick of ever micro second torture...I can't survive without taking high dosage of sleeping pills without my familys knowledge.No one can let go of me unless they let mevi for rehabs.Its all due to fears & 24/7 torment.I can't go out without high dosaged.

I'm done with suicides attempts too in order He saves me from any sort of kufr - 8 times attempts for Him & 2 for my family to be relieved.


I gave Him best of my life's years & love respect ❤? What He gave me!

Azaab!Humiliation!Regardless!Oppression and hopelessness!
No one deserves this kinda life even not mine worst enemy
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asalaamu aleykum
yaa muslimah your post is indeed gravely concerning
you should not argue with the decision of ALLAH ta alaa
He gives risqi which ofcause includes marriage to whoever he wants and deprives others
the wisdom behind is only know to no one but allah despite others who claim to guess it
you may lament and cry your misfortune but never argue with ALlah swt
Allah is the owner of everything in the universe and beyond. He does what he want,punish whoever he wishes in this world or herafter or both and also pardon whoever He wishes in this world or hereafter or both
also note this world is testing place
note some great sahaba died while never married nor enjoyed in this world
while some pious ulama died having spent all their life blind and tortured in prison
sheikh ibnu taimiyah died in prison never married and he was indeed God fearing person
 
SoldierAmatUllah said:
Actually its that crippling fear of Allah that reaches me at weird times & mocking feelings like he mocks at kuffar in Quran

Its all very closely checked by me & belief in this qadr ,that "what if its hell" After all,iys also very frightful.Im aging & ofcourse death is coming near- after shedding tears & long duas,loads of durood,I'm only triggered to sins - everything brings torture,so I seen people without much deen but end good.I want to relax too...I'm about 34,I'm not married I'm having fears of hereafter- the only good thing left is that I visit linkedin and read,post & talks about deen....i have made a little consultancy with a linkedin member and I try to keep optimism....in my heart & for others sufferings, posts pieces from various places,connecting with deen in someway or other.I spend time in learning and sharing my experiences etc.


This is one way how I escape.As I said,people are v beloved to Allah even they don't wear hijab and make bf's -then they are doing little good deeds (no pride,just complain why am I forced to obey and obey when future is so bleak?)and whoa- Support,love& love of God,despite no obedience.This is injustice as I'm gifted with a 1000 dunya trials & a lack deen trials and forced to obey?Then sending me to tortures and bad end feelings,thrown hate & my body starts to shiver because of ALLAH!!!

Why He picks up on every little sin I do for which I always make up to?Not an angel to never sin or always be an cute decent kid

So ain't I crazy that I'm already uptodeen(no kibr please don't misunderstand)and yet I suffer hate and Mockery of God on me as He mocks at Kuffar,for not letting me in a good life - neither Deen nor letting me proceed in dunya.(Just that all chances whether education or wealth,job,marriage)everything gets ruined - And I was promised THIS THAT includes marriage that I think became a source of fitna for me
FROM 21st year to 34 years- no guy that fulfills basic criteria has reached my place...And it used to be for someone known (i knew him from Syria)but then it changed into something that's horrifying.Im tired- why I don't get married?I understand it maybe qadr but so beautiful dreams since 21st year of my life,all these years- I can't believe how evil n ugly this trial seems I've.


My worst decision was my covering head at 15,then worst of decisions in 16th year an Islamic forum that finished me

Duhayma Fitan knocked me down!

Hell..can I give up Hijab for sometime & breathe?Try to be easy?because this isn't how I'm being in the right track even!

P.S:I have tonnes of sacrifices for ALLAH,tonnes of good deeds,tonnes of aiding His Religion,Tonnes of alot - so where did and do they go for which He gave me dreams ?Tonnes , No lies,all this is correct,not telling for riyaa!

Excuse me for my tone!

I'm tired & sick of ever micro second torture...I can't survive without taking high dosage of sleeping pills without my familys knowledge.No one can let go of me unless they let mevi for rehabs.Its all due to fears & 24/7 torment.I can't go out without high dosaged.

I'm done with suicides attempts too in order He saves me from any sort of kufr - 8 times attempts for Him & 2 for my family to be relieved.


I gave Him best of my life's years & love respect ❤? What He gave me!

Azaab!Humiliation!Regardless!Oppression and hopelessness!
No one deserves this kinda life even not mine worst enemy
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يَـٰٓأَيُّهَا ٱلَّذِينَ ءَامَنُوا۟ ٱصْبِرُوا۟ وَصَابِرُوا۟ وَرَابِطُوا۟ وَٱتَّقُوا۟ ٱللَّهَ لَعَلَّكُمْ تُفْلِحُونَ
 
Sorry but you didn't understand my post...et al!

I'm not lamenting for marriage first of all & last to all those who are believing this...ENOUGH!


Atleast know the situation before you give a fatwa!
 
Well,InshaAllah things seem to get in order...I say Shukr to Allah, & keep myself busy...because this torment needs to stop - We are taught Allah doesn't oppresses so this azzaab that's giving me chills must be stopped...Ya Allah,help me!

In not antagonist, this is well only grown more after a decade of my Islamic life- yeah I believe my good dreams are true..InshaAllah as many times they been.

Rest Allah knows the best!

I commit tawbah to Him Who Alone can lift this hardship!

BTW,do read up on "DUHAYMA Fitan".
.open your eyes....this imaan kufr is "Happening"& we see who stayed solid on imaan again & who totally let all be ruined!
 
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Regarding Duhayma Fitan-many Muslim are under its effect - the best of people I have seen and they (Well,it was there on Islamic Awakening forums too) said same ,feared to lose imaan & advising others- I used to advise too,maybe that's why I have seen Allah always my priority because its from Him & His Goodness!

Duhayma is a horrifying trial & it's true- in the Ahadeeth & we all should be aware of the Duhayma Fitan before we lose

P.S:The trial I'm facing is exactl the peak of my trials- seen good dreams that relief me...I'm not kafir- I'm overwhelmed -Thus, it's happening to others too,some even left Religion & others tried hard stlll

Bismillaah,

Abu Hurairah رضي الله عنه said:

The Prophet صلى الله عليه وسلم said:

“Be prompt in doing good deeds [ before you are overtaken] by turbulence which would be like a part of the dark night. During a man would be a Believer in the morning and an unbeliever in the evening or he would be a Believer in the evening and an unbeliever in the morning, selling his faith for worldly things.”

Takhreej:

{ Imam Muslim in his Saheeh #169 }

Shaykh Muhammad Naasir ud Deen Al Albaani رحمه اللّه commented:

This Hadeeth is a warning from the Prophet صلى الله عليه وسلم to his Ummah about the Fitan (trials), which the minds cannot conceive. Great Trials! “which would be like a part of the dark night”, by which the Muslims will be tried. He would be a Believer in the morning and by evening would become a Kaafir, and vice-versa.

And His صلى الله عليه وسلم saying:

“Hasten to perform deeds”, meaning: good deeds. He صلى الله عليه وسلم is prompting his Ummah (to do good deeds), especially in the times of the later generations which, with the passing of time, are getting closer (to the prophecy). The more the time passes, the more the trials and the more close we get to the Major Signs of the (approaching) Hour ). The Prophet, صلى الله عليه وسلم in this Authentic Hadeeth, is instructing us to hasten to do good deeds before we are overtaken by these trials, i.e. we face them with righteous deeds. So that if these trials come upon us all of a sudden, we can face them armed with our righteous deeds which we had done previously. And that these righteous deeds (by Allaah’s Will) will come in between us and the trials so that we do not fall into these trials which are described as: “which would be like a part of the dark night”.

{ Sharh Saheeh ut Targheeb wa Tarheeb }

** And Allaahعزوجل knows best **
 
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I think that this is an area of people growing up, thinking that things have to work in a certain way -here are some points:

1. Do you not put your trust in Allah-believers place their trust, then they are not worried. If you think that evil doers have the upperhand-then you are wrong, when Allah is best of planners.
2. If you choose to fight and do something-then you can't complain that it doesn't work out or it is too hard, it is upto you to see an amicable situation as possible and keep it simple. If you can't, then you have to bear with patients it is an injury but no where does it say in the Quran, you're going to get what you want in this world, or you should have something-that is immature. We are supposed to be servants of Allah, giving up our whole lives, what do you think that even people meant in the past when they said to the Prophet they would ransom such an such.

If you are oppressed and cannot change your condition, you just need to hold onto belief and look for the life of the next world. If there are things you can do to change a situation, then try so. If you wish to fight for something, you can't complain that others are not making it easier-if you wish, where there is not a weakness take a more peaceful option, and place your trust in Allah. There are options but it is what sits you with. Remember it is gratitude that Allah likes not your complaints, have you not heard of those when their children died, that the praised Allah, if there children are dying, they praised Allah. Whatever Allah wills-People say Insha Allah but they don't mean it-it means whatever Allah wills-it isn't only what you accept, which means you haven't submitted to Allah as much as you think you have, and then deem fit to judge your own test. Unfortuanately, people lack maturity and understanding this is a huge problem in this world for Muslims and non-Muslims. This is your journey onto Allah-not for whatever is in this world.
 
@SoldierAmatUllah

Sister, we have already spoken about this. As long as your opinion of Allah is like this, you're never gonna leave your state. If you think He's torturing you, He will torture you. If you think He's punishing you for every little sin, He will punish you.

If you finally start understanding Quran and Sunnah and change your way of thinking of Allah, things will change. I was tricked by shaytan for short period of time, I was fearing Allah like you. I was thinking that if I make a little, little, little mistake or sin that He's going to give me hardship and it was happening. I say something, I repent but panic and expect the worst to happen and IT HAPPENS.

When I stopped it stopped.

You do a sin? Repent and do your best not to repeat that sin and THAT'S IT! Move on!

Please, let's not talk about this again. It's maybe 3rd time I'm repeating this to you.

Don't forget that Allah is not punishing those who repent!
 
[MENTION=24284]Moderator[/MENTION]s

Please ban my account.Filled with ignorant crowd,passing fatwas on others situations & conditions without full knowledge of Islamic texts!
Thanks
 
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Assalam Alaikum
Sister, I think you are being so negative. People here trying to give you some genuine advice as per there understanding of your situation. Give yourself some time inshaAllah things will change and you will be able to understand there point of view.
Please don't ban yourself. :)
 
You guys don't understand a thing,so anyone would feel going away, not going to get advices for issues that doesn't exist


- I am able to prove it acc.to Islamic texts but don't want the people here upset as very few understand duhayma & give me fatwas acc.to their no knowledge of my situation- the condition that I am in which is now most 2 decades...I have received big gladtidings,by Allah's Fadl & Rahma....Only that I get upset bcz it's 24/7 & I swear I don't want to talk of anything specials I got because people feel upset.

I'm biggest sinner,I have amongst hardest trial,I have received a to me of punishments and I have seen His Rahma,Fadl in tonnes since beginning .Although my place maybe hell but I couldn't help letting know people it's ok to speak outta torture,outta pain,outta constant oppression, out of force,outta trial....its OK as many others maybe in same trials of duhayma fitan so it's ok.There's a hadeeth that talks of a Believer first reaction be not good but he stays in Islam

Sift it with Duhayma,ofcourse I respect Allah much,that's why I would trust Him for good that keeps on coming & why I stand for Him as much as I can.Stop saying things in a negative way- somethings work for someone & it may not be of benefit for me - & vice versa



Please all people here,read on duhayma fitan

Don't want to argue with anyone here.

Thanks
 
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[MENTION=39900]Sol[/MENTION]dieramatullah

You're forgetting that I'm also tested with that. I'm unable to give fatwas, I'm not alim, I'm just sharing with you as always. If I'd tell in public what imaan trials I go through from time to time and obviously coming directly from Allah - people, just by reading would lose imaan.

Your state of mind, currently, is affected by it. Just hear me sister! Change your opinion of Allah and things will be different.

You know what I'm seeing now? Allah destroying means of sinning in front of my eyes and I celebrate.
 
I have read your case,sister please don't mix and confuse everything

I'm not available for more discussions with people with no indepth knowledge & own experiences on others.
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Flos said:
[MENTION=39900]Sol[/MENTION]dieramatullah

You know what I'm seeing now? Allah destroying means of sinning in front of my eyes and I celebrate.
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Exactly how I am feeling now.I am unable to speak much so yeah I am being prevented from sinning by idle talk
 
Sister please do understand that after all these suffering if you question Allah's decree you will loose all the reward which you will get from these suffering.
It's ok feel frustrated at some point of life.Every one faces difficulty in their life.But you are wrong here
Please do understand this and believe in this ayah.
"Allah does not burden a soul beyond it can bear it."
Surah baqrah vs 286

I can say I am woman who had phobia to even visit a doc.I rember when I first time visited a dentist around 10 years back I was literally shaking my hands feet turn cold.After 3 days he called me for extraction.I was so scared I started praying tahajjud.It was like getting major surgery.I have always had phobia woth hospital or doctors.I don't know why.Ya for you what's the big deal if I went to a dentist and extracted my tooth.But during those 3 days I couldn't even sleep properly in the night.For others it's not a big deal, for me it was because I had fear which I couldn't control.Same way other's trial might look easier to you but he might be suffering more than you.
After so many years now i am in a position when I visit doc I don't feel scared at all because now I have much more bigger problem to deal with.All those fear vanished and I don't even th8nk about injection or extraction how painful procedure will be. I just go to doctors in search of cure.
 
I have repented & not going to complain- Allah gave & gives lacs of material blessings to spiritual-

Don't want more trials....Aameen
 

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