Lonely Gal
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Salaam sisters and brothers,
I'm writing this post more for your duas than anything else.
I am going through a very difficult time, and have been for sometime regarding a lifeless marriage.
Past few days I have been getting really upset at eny given moment.
Whilst reading namaz, I end up crying like proper sobbing, its something that just happens and I find it hard to control, does this make my prayer incomplete?
I really have only Allah swt to turn to as my parents/brothers and sisters like to turn a blind eye and avoid seeing what is really going on. As long as nothing is said, its fine by them, eventhough our lives are being wasted and filled with sadness, it dont come into the equation.
I have recently found thaweez in my room, prob put there by my mum to 'make me better', I dont think its the bad kind of thaweez, just think mum wants me to be a better daughter and wife and accept everything, but its not me and Im not happy about the way things are.
I think jadoo has been done on my fam but have no way to prove it cos we all used to be MashAllah very happy and I know a certain few family members were jealous and never happy about us doing well in life. Ever since my marriage, which was followed by my 2 bros wedding a while later, they always been some sort of trouble hittin the family, there has been no happiness watsoever. I know you guys probably think I'm being silly and putting this down to magic like every other person, but when one fam is content, can how can it all suddenly change and 3 marriages be down the pan.. Yes this may be a test from Allah swt, I hope we come through it quickly, cos its becoming very difficult to cope with.
I feel so lonely, my parents dont really talk to me, and i feel anger towards my sisters and they went behind my back on something. The finger always gets pointed towards me and yes, it should to some extent but I shouldn't be the only that gets the blame, he also has done wrong, but just cos he's from Pakistan, he can't ever do wrong, and Im the bad one.
I feel uncomfortable being around the family members, i get really uptight and angry inside myself, then emotions build up and its best i break down in my room where no-one sees me..
I wan this torture to be over.. i just want to be happy, to feel loved.. please make dua, my sadness goes...
imsad
I'm writing this post more for your duas than anything else.
I am going through a very difficult time, and have been for sometime regarding a lifeless marriage.
Past few days I have been getting really upset at eny given moment.
Whilst reading namaz, I end up crying like proper sobbing, its something that just happens and I find it hard to control, does this make my prayer incomplete?
I really have only Allah swt to turn to as my parents/brothers and sisters like to turn a blind eye and avoid seeing what is really going on. As long as nothing is said, its fine by them, eventhough our lives are being wasted and filled with sadness, it dont come into the equation.
I have recently found thaweez in my room, prob put there by my mum to 'make me better', I dont think its the bad kind of thaweez, just think mum wants me to be a better daughter and wife and accept everything, but its not me and Im not happy about the way things are.
I think jadoo has been done on my fam but have no way to prove it cos we all used to be MashAllah very happy and I know a certain few family members were jealous and never happy about us doing well in life. Ever since my marriage, which was followed by my 2 bros wedding a while later, they always been some sort of trouble hittin the family, there has been no happiness watsoever. I know you guys probably think I'm being silly and putting this down to magic like every other person, but when one fam is content, can how can it all suddenly change and 3 marriages be down the pan.. Yes this may be a test from Allah swt, I hope we come through it quickly, cos its becoming very difficult to cope with.
I feel so lonely, my parents dont really talk to me, and i feel anger towards my sisters and they went behind my back on something. The finger always gets pointed towards me and yes, it should to some extent but I shouldn't be the only that gets the blame, he also has done wrong, but just cos he's from Pakistan, he can't ever do wrong, and Im the bad one.
I feel uncomfortable being around the family members, i get really uptight and angry inside myself, then emotions build up and its best i break down in my room where no-one sees me..
I wan this torture to be over.. i just want to be happy, to feel loved.. please make dua, my sadness goes...
imsad