mahdisoldier19
IB Veteran
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Assalama Alakam to all brothers and sisters and Inshallah you are all on the righteous path of Islam,
It started Last December i was kicked out of my gung fu school because another student claimed i made him depressed, What happen was i use to be involved in magick and such supernatural and in doing so made myself very negative, i would think about rape and murder constantly. But my gung fu teacher would help me out and cleaned me up spirituality. So it happened over a year time then last december my best friend who i brought into kung fu told my instructor that i made him depressed because of what i use to do. In doing so i was kicked out, what that sifu never realized was that my best friend had allways been depressed he just had me as an excuse and such. So my sifu told me there is no way ii can heal or fix myself, (sorry brothers he said nothing can heal you no matter what, And i said I think if i put faith in Allah i will heal myself, srry came out kinda wrong) . My sifu (Instructor) is Jewish haha wat a irony since hes russian and im afghan. But anyway since december i have tracked as much more islam as i could, ive learned from Imam Siraj Wahhaj and others and daily going ot mosque, But i still dont feel 100 percent ok , all i ask is if any of you can give me a dua or something that will help clear up as soon as possible, Currently im doing very good but i want to make sure i never get those scary thoughts that almost drove me to suicide, but strangly when i tried to attempt it, i couldnt do it it was like somthing in my mind telling me stop dont do it, and whenver i would start to have moments of thinking of the past of what happened in the kung fu school it would scare me, then i would just be reciting quran. So much quran like never before in my life and i would kinda get better. Please inshallah one of you brothers and sisters can put me on a better right path, i try to make my prayers and do as much as i can
It started Last December i was kicked out of my gung fu school because another student claimed i made him depressed, What happen was i use to be involved in magick and such supernatural and in doing so made myself very negative, i would think about rape and murder constantly. But my gung fu teacher would help me out and cleaned me up spirituality. So it happened over a year time then last december my best friend who i brought into kung fu told my instructor that i made him depressed because of what i use to do. In doing so i was kicked out, what that sifu never realized was that my best friend had allways been depressed he just had me as an excuse and such. So my sifu told me there is no way ii can heal or fix myself, (sorry brothers he said nothing can heal you no matter what, And i said I think if i put faith in Allah i will heal myself, srry came out kinda wrong) . My sifu (Instructor) is Jewish haha wat a irony since hes russian and im afghan. But anyway since december i have tracked as much more islam as i could, ive learned from Imam Siraj Wahhaj and others and daily going ot mosque, But i still dont feel 100 percent ok , all i ask is if any of you can give me a dua or something that will help clear up as soon as possible, Currently im doing very good but i want to make sure i never get those scary thoughts that almost drove me to suicide, but strangly when i tried to attempt it, i couldnt do it it was like somthing in my mind telling me stop dont do it, and whenver i would start to have moments of thinking of the past of what happened in the kung fu school it would scare me, then i would just be reciting quran. So much quran like never before in my life and i would kinda get better. Please inshallah one of you brothers and sisters can put me on a better right path, i try to make my prayers and do as much as i can
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