Being raised in the US, I thought I had to be christian. I researched the beliefs of different churches for years. None of them shared the beliefs I had in me from a very young age. I had come to think there was something wrong with my way of thinking. A year ago I met a Muslim. Being the curious person I am, I went online and read what Islam was about. As I read I found beliefs that had been in my heart since I was a child. I couldnt stop reading. My belief in Islam is not something that just happened recently. I shared belief in One God and modesty from a very young age. I was raised in a small white community. Islam was not something I was familiar with. It was a religion of people in other countries.
Now I struggle. Not with my faith, that is strong. I struggle to find my place in the Ummah. Sisters ask where I am from. I tell them I was born here in the US. They smile and say Alhamdulillah then walk away. I learn the best I can by studying books and online. I have no one to speak to. I tend to be a little shy when around people, so that is part of the problem. It is difficult to be alone all the time. Is there a place for white Sisters in the Muslim community?
Now I struggle. Not with my faith, that is strong. I struggle to find my place in the Ummah. Sisters ask where I am from. I tell them I was born here in the US. They smile and say Alhamdulillah then walk away. I learn the best I can by studying books and online. I have no one to speak to. I tend to be a little shy when around people, so that is part of the problem. It is difficult to be alone all the time. Is there a place for white Sisters in the Muslim community?