Asalamu alykum brothers and sisters
When I was teenager my life was just so depressing I used to cry all the time basically I wasn’t doing ma best in school, always listening to music, swearing and disrespecting my parents (never realised the importance of parents then) and I just wanted to be like the kaffirs (ASTIGFURILLAH), I was into my looks, hair, boys (Astafuriallah, Astafuriallah, Astafuriallah, Astafuriallah) just months before I turned 18 my life changed dramatically and I really mean dramatically something happened to me and then I had this urge to offer salat and read up on Islam and it got to the point where I realised the beauty of ISLAM the truth, all the angels, prophets our holy QU'RAN everything especially the Creator of the Heavens and the Earth who is ALLAH (swt)....ALLAH (swt) did everything for me made me into a strong and confident muslimah, my parents trust me soooo much, i love my brothers and sisters, i learn new lessons everyday, I stopped listening to music and now listen to naats and nasheeds, learned to control my mouth and stopped swearing and I have realised the significance of my parents and I love them dearly MASHALLAH......my life is so beautiful with ALLAH (swt), I feel happy, satisfied, I don’t take things for granted, I feel beautiful in my hijab, jalbab and niqab I feel strong, confident, the list is endless......I try to be the best Muslim I can.....I have dedicated my life to ALLAH (swt) and my life is just fantastic.......of course there are time where I feel down but I remember ALLAH (swt) and I smile and I forget my troubles…truly my troubles are gone but when I think of ALLAH (swt) they jus blow away, seriously I was sooo happy
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ALHUMDULLILAH im at university at the moment in my first year, I was reading namaz and it helped me SOO much seriously, I thought I was never going to get in there if I didn’t read, I would have never thought that I be going university and doing medicine Alhumdullilah. I am also engaged, he is really pious mashallah, he has a beard and soo much light on his face and I feel soo happy, anyway I ask ALLAH (swt) for things and MASHALLAH they are granted I truly love ALLAH (swt) and the PROPHET MUHAMMED (pbuh)......I read about his life and he is truly just AMAZING MASHALLAH he truly is inspirational everything he has done for us......just amazing...he is my role model.
I was encouraging others to offer salat because reading truly changed my life, the way I think, the way I act, the way I dress etc, I am sooooooooo happy and never wan to change….NEVER
My life was Alhumdullilah fantastic, truly it was, but then whilst I was reading 1 day a thought came into my head, and said 'Why are you praying, Who are you praying to, there’s no-one there', I tried to forget about the thoughts but I kept on thinking about it and thinking about it and thinking about it, and thinking about it, seriously I jus couldn’t stop for some reason, I couldn’t sleep, was crying :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( all the time because I couldn’t think straight, I jus wanted ALLAH (swt), but when I said that in my mind, the questions would cum and say ‘Who’s ALLAH (swt), ALLAH (swt) is not real, there no point reading namaz’ I wanted to stop but the thoughts wouldn’t leave me, they would just circle in ma mind and I would go mad :grumbling :grumbling :grumbling :grumbling and jus pray that I would turn back to the way I was, I jus wanted ALLAH (swt) every time I said 'Ya ALLAH (swt) please help me, please help me, a thought would come into my head and say to me 'Who are you saying that to there’s no-one there' I got soo angry and tried to forget about it but I wasn’t successful. I kept on pondering over it sooooo much, it was like it was printed in my mind, it felt like there was a jinn controlling my head, I kept thinking about it and I stopped believing in ALLAH (swt), I became into an Atheist, I was scared I wanted to go back but I couldn’t because of my lack of imaan, I tried to build it, every time I offered salat, my mind would constantly be fighting saying 'Maria that’s good your offering salat, then another thing would come and say Who are you praying to, ALLAH (swt) is not real' I got depressed and wasn’t happy at all, I was turning back to my ways, I lied and didn’t care about my work, I REALLI REALLI did want to go back but I couldn’t because I couldn’t concentrate and in the end I gave up, now i just think that when somthings happens i dont say ALLAH (swt) did this for me, life is like that, i cannot stop thinking like this, :grumbling it has been a year since I have been doing this and truly I jus cant take it, I really want go back, I have read in many places that ALLAH (swt) is only tests us, He is testing me, I keep saying that to myself, this is just a test, because I pondered on it so much that this is how it is now, I cant think about anything else, times went past and I gradually started saying to myself, that we were put on this earth for a reason, then I read some more and managed myself back but I cant dedicate myself like the way it was before, my head is soo messed that these thoughts are printed in my head, I try to ignore it but it is always there, please advise me brothers and sisters what’s happened to me, what did I do wrong, what shall I do
Why did this happen to me, my life was sooo mashallah good, did I do this myself, I felt that ALLAH (swt) was telling me that your going thru a test, I found numerous poems and stories and quotes in the Qu'ran saying that it is a test, but I don’t get why my head does not accept it, it accepts it for a while then im back to the way I was, I really don’t want to be like this, because my time is running out and we can die at anytime, please help me brothers and sisters please, my head is not accepting even the words of ALLAH (swt), the Qu’ran, for some reason every time I listen to it or read the translation I just say it’s a book, please I don’t want to think like this, I want to go back the way it was, please tell me what I should do, is there some form of du'a i can say to purify my mind, becuase it is filled with such nonsense, seriously, tell me what has happened to me, ma mind is messed up :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'(
Jazakahllah brothers and sisters for your help, truly, TRULY, seriously family thank you sooooooooo much, thank you TRULY
Asalamu alykum
p.s JAZAKHALLAH AGAIN FAMILY
When I was teenager my life was just so depressing I used to cry all the time basically I wasn’t doing ma best in school, always listening to music, swearing and disrespecting my parents (never realised the importance of parents then) and I just wanted to be like the kaffirs (ASTIGFURILLAH), I was into my looks, hair, boys (Astafuriallah, Astafuriallah, Astafuriallah, Astafuriallah) just months before I turned 18 my life changed dramatically and I really mean dramatically something happened to me and then I had this urge to offer salat and read up on Islam and it got to the point where I realised the beauty of ISLAM the truth, all the angels, prophets our holy QU'RAN everything especially the Creator of the Heavens and the Earth who is ALLAH (swt)....ALLAH (swt) did everything for me made me into a strong and confident muslimah, my parents trust me soooo much, i love my brothers and sisters, i learn new lessons everyday, I stopped listening to music and now listen to naats and nasheeds, learned to control my mouth and stopped swearing and I have realised the significance of my parents and I love them dearly MASHALLAH......my life is so beautiful with ALLAH (swt), I feel happy, satisfied, I don’t take things for granted, I feel beautiful in my hijab, jalbab and niqab I feel strong, confident, the list is endless......I try to be the best Muslim I can.....I have dedicated my life to ALLAH (swt) and my life is just fantastic.......of course there are time where I feel down but I remember ALLAH (swt) and I smile and I forget my troubles…truly my troubles are gone but when I think of ALLAH (swt) they jus blow away, seriously I was sooo happy





ALHUMDULLILAH im at university at the moment in my first year, I was reading namaz and it helped me SOO much seriously, I thought I was never going to get in there if I didn’t read, I would have never thought that I be going university and doing medicine Alhumdullilah. I am also engaged, he is really pious mashallah, he has a beard and soo much light on his face and I feel soo happy, anyway I ask ALLAH (swt) for things and MASHALLAH they are granted I truly love ALLAH (swt) and the PROPHET MUHAMMED (pbuh)......I read about his life and he is truly just AMAZING MASHALLAH he truly is inspirational everything he has done for us......just amazing...he is my role model.



I was encouraging others to offer salat because reading truly changed my life, the way I think, the way I act, the way I dress etc, I am sooooooooo happy and never wan to change….NEVER
My life was Alhumdullilah fantastic, truly it was, but then whilst I was reading 1 day a thought came into my head, and said 'Why are you praying, Who are you praying to, there’s no-one there', I tried to forget about the thoughts but I kept on thinking about it and thinking about it and thinking about it, and thinking about it, seriously I jus couldn’t stop for some reason, I couldn’t sleep, was crying :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( all the time because I couldn’t think straight, I jus wanted ALLAH (swt), but when I said that in my mind, the questions would cum and say ‘Who’s ALLAH (swt), ALLAH (swt) is not real, there no point reading namaz’ I wanted to stop but the thoughts wouldn’t leave me, they would just circle in ma mind and I would go mad :grumbling :grumbling :grumbling :grumbling and jus pray that I would turn back to the way I was, I jus wanted ALLAH (swt) every time I said 'Ya ALLAH (swt) please help me, please help me, a thought would come into my head and say to me 'Who are you saying that to there’s no-one there' I got soo angry and tried to forget about it but I wasn’t successful. I kept on pondering over it sooooo much, it was like it was printed in my mind, it felt like there was a jinn controlling my head, I kept thinking about it and I stopped believing in ALLAH (swt), I became into an Atheist, I was scared I wanted to go back but I couldn’t because of my lack of imaan, I tried to build it, every time I offered salat, my mind would constantly be fighting saying 'Maria that’s good your offering salat, then another thing would come and say Who are you praying to, ALLAH (swt) is not real' I got depressed and wasn’t happy at all, I was turning back to my ways, I lied and didn’t care about my work, I REALLI REALLI did want to go back but I couldn’t because I couldn’t concentrate and in the end I gave up, now i just think that when somthings happens i dont say ALLAH (swt) did this for me, life is like that, i cannot stop thinking like this, :grumbling it has been a year since I have been doing this and truly I jus cant take it, I really want go back, I have read in many places that ALLAH (swt) is only tests us, He is testing me, I keep saying that to myself, this is just a test, because I pondered on it so much that this is how it is now, I cant think about anything else, times went past and I gradually started saying to myself, that we were put on this earth for a reason, then I read some more and managed myself back but I cant dedicate myself like the way it was before, my head is soo messed that these thoughts are printed in my head, I try to ignore it but it is always there, please advise me brothers and sisters what’s happened to me, what did I do wrong, what shall I do
Why did this happen to me, my life was sooo mashallah good, did I do this myself, I felt that ALLAH (swt) was telling me that your going thru a test, I found numerous poems and stories and quotes in the Qu'ran saying that it is a test, but I don’t get why my head does not accept it, it accepts it for a while then im back to the way I was, I really don’t want to be like this, because my time is running out and we can die at anytime, please help me brothers and sisters please, my head is not accepting even the words of ALLAH (swt), the Qu’ran, for some reason every time I listen to it or read the translation I just say it’s a book, please I don’t want to think like this, I want to go back the way it was, please tell me what I should do, is there some form of du'a i can say to purify my mind, becuase it is filled with such nonsense, seriously, tell me what has happened to me, ma mind is messed up :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'(
Jazakahllah brothers and sisters for your help, truly, TRULY, seriously family thank you sooooooooo much, thank you TRULY
Asalamu alykum
p.s JAZAKHALLAH AGAIN FAMILY