Greetings and peace be with you anonymous;
I am very sorry to bother you again but now I feel even worse. Nothing changes please help me. I feel like my life is falling apart....:'
Nothing changes, because you do not seem to be making changes. You and only you have to do something different.
Voluntary work is just so powerful, try and help a local group of people in need, the homeless, disabled, elderly, sick or even if there are groups that help people with similar problems to yourself. Ask at your local mosque. As you volunteer, over time people start to thank you, they appreciate your help, When people thank you, then you will start to feel better about yourself.
I help homeless people, one man I met said, every night when I find somewhere to sleep, I think of all the things I need to thank God for, it helps me find peace.
One homeless man said, I have no worries, God loves me.
We helped an elderly homeless lady with some food and drink one night, she said, can I pray for you.
These people carry their home in a bag, yet when you take the risk to be with them, they can also teach us profound lessons in life.
You sound as if you want to be a kind and caring person, so you need to find ways to be kind and caring. Voluntary work can bring you into contact with lots of other kind and caring volunteers. When you try and help others in need, you also help yourself.
Pray for your community to be a kind and caring place to live in, but when you pray for kindness, you also have to be a part of the solution, and do something.
May you and your family be blessed and become a blessing to others.
Eric