anonymous
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Salaam Brothers & Sisters,
I have been on this forum many times, been active and in - active.
I am going to explain my situation and I wish someone can guide me.
From 18, I have been drinking, smoking cigarettes and sheesha. I am 22 not, and now cut down drinking I only do it when I go out with my friends.
I have big financial problems debt with banks / friends, I have no piece in my heart. Its like someone has come into my body, and taken over me. I always look over my shoulder it might be police, someone bringing up a lie I have told. Someone going to give me trouble, that will hurt my Mum etc.
During Ramadan last year, for the first 10 roza's I kept them all, I read all my namaz and everything went down hill.
I am fed up with my life, I have considering committing suicide although its haraam Hell seems a better option then this stress I have caused.
I have no where to turn I am a lost sole thats on a verge of break....
I just wish to myself sometimes I wish to find a decent Muslim girl get married and settle down it will allow me to focus....but that is hard.....to find a girl.....
I have turned to Allah so many times, then I forget Allah and I have repeated this process about 3/4 times...every time the I never get helped or find an easier solution out.....ive never asked for people to pray for me....never i've always believed I should always pray for myself and my fellow brothers and sisters....as asking people is causing them extra work....
I am asking you PLEASE pray for my....PLEASE....because I dont think I can cope with my life Anymore...
May Allah bless and give everyone janaah for praying for me and reading my post ameen.
Salaam
I have been on this forum many times, been active and in - active.
I am going to explain my situation and I wish someone can guide me.
From 18, I have been drinking, smoking cigarettes and sheesha. I am 22 not, and now cut down drinking I only do it when I go out with my friends.
I have big financial problems debt with banks / friends, I have no piece in my heart. Its like someone has come into my body, and taken over me. I always look over my shoulder it might be police, someone bringing up a lie I have told. Someone going to give me trouble, that will hurt my Mum etc.
During Ramadan last year, for the first 10 roza's I kept them all, I read all my namaz and everything went down hill.
I am fed up with my life, I have considering committing suicide although its haraam Hell seems a better option then this stress I have caused.
I have no where to turn I am a lost sole thats on a verge of break....
I just wish to myself sometimes I wish to find a decent Muslim girl get married and settle down it will allow me to focus....but that is hard.....to find a girl.....
I have turned to Allah so many times, then I forget Allah and I have repeated this process about 3/4 times...every time the I never get helped or find an easier solution out.....ive never asked for people to pray for me....never i've always believed I should always pray for myself and my fellow brothers and sisters....as asking people is causing them extra work....
I am asking you PLEASE pray for my....PLEASE....because I dont think I can cope with my life Anymore...
May Allah bless and give everyone janaah for praying for me and reading my post ameen.
Salaam