i woulda lied...
i woulda lied,
if i told you i aint ever tried,
i woulda lied,
if i told you i aint ever cried,
i woulda lied,
if i told you i aint ever thought of suicide,
i woulda, i woulda lied...
a word of caution,
im full of emotion,
im gonna tell ya the reality,
im a split personality,
tryina save my sanity,
full of anxiety,
im so misunderstood,
im tryin to do good,
but turns to bad behaviour,
always known as a failure,
im in need of a saviour,
never knew who to turn too,
everyones like a stranger,
now im lost in a danger zone,
havin to grief n moan,
all on my own,
ive had enough,
of this bs n stuff,
feel like im in cuffs,
n shankles,
locked around my ankles,
full of anger n rage,
might as well throw me in a cage,
lock me up n chuck away the key,
clearly i cant see,
even if ya royalty,
theres no such thing as loyalty,
now im tryina ta train,
my mind n brain,
to try n refrain,
from thinkin about this pain,
but the pain just runs so deep,
i cant even sleep,
this life aint fair,
wake me up from this nightmare
i woulda lied,
if i told you i aint ever tried,
i woulda lied,
if i told you i aint ever cried,
i woulda lied,
if i told you i aint ever thought of suicide,
i woulda, i woulda lied...
i kno this life is a test,
soul cant find any rest,
n im tryin ma best,
need to get it off my chest,
its started to infest,
got no where to protest,
its like im under house arrest,
feelin so conflicted,
heart is so constriced,
mind is so restricted,
never feel any happiness or joy,
anything i touch i destroy,
at least i keep it real,
n tell you how i feel,
fakers are so fake,
what i wouldnt give or take,
for my mother not to call me a mistake,
suppose im a disease,
existance i want it to cease,
all i want is some peace,
wanna feel at ease,
soul needs some release,
bubble ill burst,
to admit i'll be the first,
cant wait to get in the hearse,
hope i get forgiven for my sin,
before i end up in my coffin,
when its my turn,
to my lord ill return,
i hope i dont burn,
mercy i hope to earn,
so many mistakes but i never learn
i woulda lied,
if i told you i aint ever tried,
i woulda lied,
if i told you i aint ever cried,
i woulda lied,
if i told you i aint ever thought of suicide,
i woulda, i woulda lied...
i swear i coulda sworn,
when i was born,
heart was torn,
didnt cry all i did was mourn,
i was born alone,
when i die im goin alone,
i can envision my gravestone,
sayin born in nineteen eighty five,
now hes no longer alive,
destination youve arrived,
livin a life deprived,
always told your a failure n you aint clever,
got no determination n endeavour,
always told your young n dumb,
then they wonder why im numb,
im just tryin ta succumb,
these demons whisperin makin me panic,
its demons cuz i aint schizophrenic,
hearing voices in my head,
the more i listen the more im fed,
its annoying im so annoyed,
frustrated n paranoid,
tryin ride thru it like a soldier,
keep my head above my shoulders,
peeps claimin that they care,
but they're never really there,
no one to talk too,
about what im goin through,
im so lonely n alone,
hearts turnin into a stone,
its becomin really cold,
death why you got me on hold?
i woulda lied,
if i told you i aint ever tried,
i woulda lied,
if i told you i aint ever cried,
i woulda lied,
if i told you i aint ever thought of suicide,
i woulda, i woulda lied...