Salaam everyone
I am struggling with life at the moment I
Feel very depressed and moving forward with life I havnt achieved anything.. I am in alot of debt.
Is this because I don't pray my namaaz? I struggle to keep my fast and missed a few because I do manual labour work?
I don't know why when it comes to praying I feel so lazy I really don't know why.
Overall I'm not a happy person and I think this is due to me not praying. I have committed sins on the past when I was young. Maybe this is a punishment?
Asalaamu Alaikum, My brother what has happened in the past has gone. Yesterday will never come back so what is important is NOW.
You are feeling this way because it is our natural fitrah (inclination) to want to go towards Allah and fulfill our obligations to him. As long as you do not go towards Allah and do not fulfill the purpose of your life which is Salaah then you will continue on a downhill spiral.
So the first thing you must do is now learn from the past and internalise in your mind that you WILL establish prayers from now on. That you WILLmake the best of now. That you WILL do your Salaah no matter what.
How long does it take to do one Salaah? 5 minutes? If we calculate the whole days Salaah thats around half an hour. So half an hour of our day is spent on Salaah. Did you know that is just 3 % of our day! Subhaanallah and we still struggle with fulfilling this obligation.
My brother there are NO excuses for any of us to miss a single Salaah. We spend half an hour in front of the mirror so why cant half an hour be spent fulfilling the very purpose of our life.
Do we not owe anything to our creator that we should not make every effort to fulfill our obligations unto him?
Does he not give us food, drink when others are starving? Does he not clothe us when many have rags to wear? Does he not give us shelter when others have no homes or live in conditions worse than animals? Does he not give us wealth when others beg for pennys?
Did he not give you a job when many do not have one? Did he not give you a family when others have no one?
How unappreciative are we? We still complain even though we have such little to do in return for everything he has given us. There is NO doubt that we can NEVER return the favours Allah has done for us but at least we can fulfill our obligations unto him. At least we can be a little thankful each day by fulfilling our prayers ontime.
My brother you get tired when it comes to Salaah because shaythan knows it is your biggest obligation. He knows that if he prevents you from praying Salaah then you will be destroyed. He knows that it is preventing you from getting closer to Allah. He knows that by praying the Salaah your duas will be accepted.
So will you continue to let your enemy shaythan prevent you from getting closer to Allah? Will you continue to let him stop your dua's being accepted? Will you let him continue destroying you? Will you let him stop you from fulfilling the very purpose of yor life?
Get a hold of yourself now and go and make wudu and do 2 rakat nafil and repent and beg and cry unto Allah! Every night in the last ten nights are nights that Allah is merciful and forgives many. Everynight in the last ten nights are nights that Allah releases many from the fire of Hell.
Any of these nights particularly the odd numbered nights are nights where we can gain forgiveness of ALL OF OUR SINS PAST AND PRESENT!
Any one of these odd nights are nights where we can gain over 83 years of reward.
So do you really want to change your life forever? Do you really want to gain forgiveness of every sin past and present? Do you really want to fill that gap you have in your heart? Do you want to get closer to Allah and have the pleasure of seeing his face in Jannah?
Then go now and make 2 rakat Nafil and beg and cry to Allah for his mercy, forgiveness and help. Ask of him to bring you closer to him. Make a firm promise and commitment to Allah that you will NEVER abandon Salaah again but that you will fulfill your purpose in life from now on. Call upon him and He will NEVER abandon you! Walk towards him and he will RUN towards you.
So do sincere Worship of Allah in the the odd numbered nights of Ramadan: (21 is gone) 23, 25, 27 and 29.
These are the nights of mercy and forgiveness. These are the nights that we can be released from the Hell fire!
So stand in those nights in prayer hoping for reward and begging of Allah to forgive you of all of your past sins and you will have a lifetime of sins wiped out and over 83 years of reward in your hereafter bankaccount. Subhaanallah how generous is Allah? He is giving you an opportunity not to miss. He is giving you a chance to wipe your slate clean. To have an entire lifetimes sins wiped away so will you not grab this opportunity? It could be your last!
Now my brother you know what to do so waste not a second more for time is not on our side and ANY second could be our last!
If you need anymore help or advice then please do not hesitate to ask!