maryambintjared
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I had the most terrible nightmare last night, and it was so realistic that when I woke up it took me some time to realise that it hadn't happened.
I dreamt that I was talking to a Muslim brother, and asking him questions about Islam. He was answering most helpfully, and I was writing down notes and things to read up on later. Then suddenly he became angry, and told me that I was not a Muslim, never had been and never would be. He grabbed a chain around my neck, and told me I had committed shirk, yanked the chain and broke it, throwing it away. I begged him to explain what I had done, and he refused to tell me. I told him I wanted to say Shahadda again, to prove my faith, and he said it was too late, I'd already apostasised, and could never be clean again.
I woke up absolutely heart broken, and utterly terrified, and only realised that this incident hadn't happened when I'd calmed down. It's now past midnight the following day, and I'm scared to go to sleep, because the nightmare was so intense and heart breaking.
Can anyone offer insight as to what this meant?
I dreamt that I was talking to a Muslim brother, and asking him questions about Islam. He was answering most helpfully, and I was writing down notes and things to read up on later. Then suddenly he became angry, and told me that I was not a Muslim, never had been and never would be. He grabbed a chain around my neck, and told me I had committed shirk, yanked the chain and broke it, throwing it away. I begged him to explain what I had done, and he refused to tell me. I told him I wanted to say Shahadda again, to prove my faith, and he said it was too late, I'd already apostasised, and could never be clean again.
I woke up absolutely heart broken, and utterly terrified, and only realised that this incident hadn't happened when I'd calmed down. It's now past midnight the following day, and I'm scared to go to sleep, because the nightmare was so intense and heart breaking.
Can anyone offer insight as to what this meant?