ConcealedGem
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excuse me................
no i'm not !
thats the worst thing anybody has ever told me.........doesn't matter in what way!
in some years i'll make you regret having said that!
and i'm not "mini" anybody, smoke has her own life and her own stuff and is a completly different person.
and i'm 14! not 7! and 14 is really close to 18 which is really close to 25 and so in no time i'll be 40! ok?
and smoke is someone alot different than me, she's funny, am i? no .
i exaggerate and dream big, that i talk about on ib. does she? no
she complains about stuff and people on ib . do i ? no
she's sounds like a happy person. am i? no
she says stuff that makes sense and she can explain! can i? hell no.
no one has to take all that seriously... i just cant shut my mouth on that one
if you think i'm being dramatic..........i wish you were in my place....
wait i'll tell you what happened to me yesterday!
a girl just literally came up and bumped into me out of absolutely no where and she hits my face so bad...all of my mouth is filled with blood. and i didn't want to tell her because i dont want drama! so for the whole day i kept on drinking water after each second so no one knows
my physics teacher was absent yesterday so the chemistry teacher had a substitution and he asked everyone to speak up about something...now stupid me, i didn't have anything to say...so i just be like i got nothing to say but about what blah blah blah blah said...blah blah blah and he be like you're a very good observer and listener and you're really mature...and i'm like i wish you knew me...and then he's like i can tell you come from a very good family...and i was like i wish you knew my family...
and then at home i found out that the woman i'm living with, was actually the same one who adopted me, when i was three but then returned me back to the orphanage and then adopted me again while i was 5, because my grandparents(or her parents) said so. now i want to know if she's my real mother too. but how am i going to ask her? i know its of no use but i'm curious!
and then ...for i week i had been trying to avoid all those everyday skirmishes at my home, but finally yesterday i couldn't take it in any more. my mom and my brother yell at each other everyday and when i come in between they both start telling me how i have ruined their lives. what do i do? i either stand there quietly listening to them or leave the house.
and one of my school fellow's dad died.
and i lost my money! i had been saving my earnings for the past the past three months and now...........great job ramin!
and then eversince my time in pakistan, yesterday, for the first time the teacher asked me to read. now my mouth was all bleeding, plus i got hiccups at the same time(but thanks god the hiccups gave me an excuse to drink water). the whole class was laughing at my british accent and that i got hiccups in btw too! and i was so stupid, i was laughing at myself too. and now when i thing over it ....it just gets me sooo mad! like how could i be so stupid!
now with a day like that, how do you expect me to act normal. even smiling hurts so bad!
thats no excuse, just an explanation.
i know i am flawed and everything i do is a mistake and i have disorders and i am stupid and dumb and talentless and i speak nonsense and i'm a bad person in general. and i suck at everything. u dont have to say that.
i didn't mean to sound rude to anyone. i promise! i really like all of the people on ib and i respect you all very much!
but i need to learn manners and etiquettes and patience and controle over my damn mouth ...i hope you'll wait until then
Chilllllllllllll. It's not that deep yo, nothing wrong with being a drama queen.

