The Path that led me to Allaah. - A Prequel to the heart-break series -

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I am happy about his decision:statisfie A must be special and he has time to discover her.
 
I think K's just signed in, is it okay if i add him in?


What for?


No, just wan2 clear up some things init?


Sure ok.

K has been invited into the conversation.


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Hey sup bro!


yo, wasup man.


A, this is K.


Hi.


sup.


So howz thingz.


They ayt man.. what abt u2?


we good man.. respect.


no mo arguing now iz it?


lol nah..


lol


thats kool lol


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So yeah, things were good again with her. And i was glad that she was happy once again..

We'd talk on the phone, and i'd carry on texting her, phoning her so she stays happy. I never had planned nothing ahead, i'd just think about the present. The future was ahead, and the present already seemed overburdening as it is.


One day she phoned the radio and asked them to mention our names together.. lol, but its weird, cuz luv makes u do krazy things.



I was still always afraid of getting too close, but the past was bad enough.. and the hurt i experienced for the first time actually made me want to keep her safe, otherwise she would experience it too.. and now that my heart was abit more softer, i was prepared to actually sacrifice some things to save her from it...


This lasted for weeks, and moods kept changing. Sometimes she would be happy, and alot of the times she would be sad. "Is this even going to work?" she would ask.. i would sometimes promise that things would be okay, but would they?




I became tired.. and helpless. I never had anyone to talk to, whoever i spoke to would have some contact with her, so i felt i needed someone else to chat to.


One day i was bored.. again, so i wanted someone to chat to.

What shall i do?


I joined a forum, remember the one my 'mate' had posted my pic on? I just looked around on it really, that's where A had originally found 'me' or my pic atleast.

I saw a character there, and she had mentioned that she lived in a town near where i lived.. so, yeah AGAIN. I pm'd her, and got her email ad.


We added each other on msn, and this.. this would be the beginning of the ending...
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Does it always have to be a girl who he has to talk to when he is bored? :? I mean guys talk to other guys when they are bored to innit?
 
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lollll nah its cuz its easier to talk to someone new who doesn't know everyone else u know.. that way you can express yourself without feeling that wa u gna say is gna be passed onto them if u get me..

lol noodlz, Allaahu a'lam maybe he just found it easier to chat to them.


Dont worry tho, as u guys requested, its gna finish soon insha Allaah :D since u all cudn't bare the 'stress' :? :p
 
Fi_Sabilillah said:
Dont worry tho, as u guys requested, its gna finish soon insha Allaah :D since u all cudn't bare the 'stress' :? :p
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You don't need to take exactly our words:-[

The new girl will lead him toward marriage :?
 
We'll see, soon inshaa Allaah. :) I'm behind in writing them up.. thats why i havn't posted anything else yet today. Sorry.
 
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Hand in your reports everyone! lol go on.. i wna see dif views :) and insha Allaah others can reflect too.. the characters changed quite abit over the past few chapters.
 
The main character has gone from being modest to self-centered, and now in my opinion, he is getting a hold of himself and starting to ponder over his actions.

His new attitude of reflecting, may lead him to do good. However, I believe he must be consistent in doing this. Because making it a habit of keeping tabs on yourself is a great thing that lets you evaluate yourself.

Perhaps, his weakness which happens to be present in many of people, is trying to find something to do in the times of boredom. Everyone is bound to be bored at one point in time or the other, however, it is how we make use of this time that matters. Are we spending it getting more knowledge? Are we securing our hereafter by being Islamic? Are we helping others? Or are we simply looking for someone to talk to because "hey! I'm bored and haven't got anything else to do." Infact excuses at these opportune time are planted by the shaytaan.

Anyway. The character of A seems to be a little unbalanced and I'm still trying to understand her character. (or it may be that I just suck at understanding girls :?)

That is my 2 cents (or whatever the equivalent in UK currency :p)
 
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And be not like those who forgot Allah, so He made them forget themselves. Those are the Fasiqun (rebellious, disobedient to Allah). [Qur'an 59:19]


Part 5:


I had forgotten who i was, totally.

Everything i did or said was covered up, if i told people my deep inside feelings - they'd get too personal, and if i did too - then we would get attatched.. so i couldn't, i couldn't let anyone get too near me. Otherwise i'd get hurt, and i didn't want to.. again.


This is exactly what the people go through.. they hide their sorrow and true self out of fear, and cover it up with laughter and a personality, yet this isn't them - they're not really happy.

There heart inclines to evil, because it loves it.. because it keeps that spark running for them, yet when they lose it, they get depressed and want more.. and more. Until, death overtakes them and they see the true reality. But by then, it's too late.


Know that the life of this world is only play and amusement, adornment and mutual boasting among you, and rivalry in respect of wealth and children, as the likeness of vegetation after rain, thereof the growth is pleasing to the tiller; afterwards it dries up and you see it turning yellow; then it becomes straw.

But in the Hereafter (there is) a severe torment (for the disbelievers, evil-doers), and (there is) Forgiveness from Allah and (His) Good Pleasure (for the believers, good-doers), whereas the life of this world is only a deceiving enjoyment.

[Qur'an Al-Hadeed (the Iron) 57: 20]


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Anyway, i've got a new person to talk to now! Yay!

I never wanted this person to like me or anything, i just wanted to have someone new to talk to, to hear me out so i could express myself without the person telling it to A, or anyone else i knew.


The person was online.


Hey


hey hw r ya?


I'm ayt, u?


am ok thx


kool, so what skool do you go2?


i go to that one.


oh, that all girls school?


yeh lol

so u got exams soon?



Oh yeah! when are yours?


mine are next week, yours?


..i think mine are too...


you started revising?


no, not yet.. i forgot they were near so quick..



lol, thats well shocking, so u havn't revised anything yet?


no..


i'll help u out if u want?


sure.. thanks.


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Allaah's Messenger spoke the truth when he said:

"A person is likely to follow the faith of his friend, so look whom you befriend."

[Recorded in Abu Dawud & Tirmidhi]


i need some advice seriosly..


What about?


"It's about this gurl i know..


I explained the story to her, from the beginning to the ending..


...and now it's a burden to be with her, seriosly."


Don't you wna be with her though?



I feel really sorry for her.. i don't want her to get hurt, honestly. Cuz i know it hurts alot, it hurts well bad. But this wait.. it seems like it's just harming her more.


I get u..


I don't know.. if i finish it now.. its gna strike her so hard, but if i let it drag on.. its gna last longer, and we don't even know if its gna work anyway.



Yeh..



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I find very pathetic to keep a relation with a girl only don't hurt her. Even this feeling - if she would know about it - would hurt her :-[
 
The guy got her.. when he was corrupted, and now as his heart became softer.. he's reflected on his past, seen how painful it is to lose someone for your first time.. so he doesn't want her to go through the same.. so he doesn't know what to do...
 
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lol...you people are too judgemental. Seriously, thats life, people do wrong things. Don't judge them, because judging blinds you in the end. When you start to feel, "I'd never do such a thing", traps are set, and then Allah forbid you're faced with it. Just pray we never go through such a thing or become like that.

And remember when pickin on the dude or the girls, you're picking on real people. Think about how they would feel if they were to read your comments.

Ah, I haven't read the whole thing, but laters...so far pretty good.
 
Not trying to judge :( Cuz I know I've made mistakes like that. I'm really talking to myself when I'm saying stuff here...

Don't judge them, because judging blinds you in the end. When you start to feel, "I'd never do such a thing", traps are set, and then Allah forbid you're faced with it. Just pray we never go through such a thing or become like that.
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I completely agree with this...cuz its happened with me. I didnt know about this though. Just found out AFTER it happened...

May Allah(swt) forgive us all InshaAllah, Ameen.
 
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Anyway, 4get that for a little bit now.. what exam u doing for english?


The Higher one.


Same here! i havn't even read the book or nothin.


I've read it over it twice.


Is it? do u understand it?


Abit, lol


lol ok tell me what its about..



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She taught me abit about the story so i would know what to do in the exam.. i felt abit relaxed now, maybe i could trust someone after a long time?


I learnt quite abit now, and there were only a few days left till the exams. Time had gone past soooo quick!

So, you got the exam the same day as me right?


Yeah, hope u do well.


u2.. what else u interested in?


not much.. oh yeah, there was this girl from our school who passed away some months ago. i was well shocked!!!


yeah?


yeh.. and some girls were listening to this islamic teacher, and the teacher said that when you go home, pretend your dead so you know how she is..


woah! n u did that?


i went home and at night time, i shut the light off and lay still on the floor for a while.. just to feel how it would be when you're dead.


how did u feel?


i was proper freaked out.. we can die at anytime init?


yh.. that must have been shocking.


she probably thought she had her whole life infront of her..


thats true.. seriosly.



i really need to change myself..


what do u mean?


i'm not sure.. do u think more about death now than before?


yeh obviously, why not..


Were you practising islaam before?


no..


o ok..


now i'm working on it though.. gradually.


that's good..

I think she's on now..


u gna chat to her?



yeh.. i really dno what to do about all of this though..


it'll get better insha allah, i know what u goin thru.


really? i hope so..


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So i started chatting to A, her exams were coming up too.. and her parents had been putting alot of pressure on her.. these would affect her future ALOT.

But this love business was distracting her...


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