hisnameiszzz
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Salaams all,
I know some of you have been following my trials and tribulations with my neighbours which has been ongoing for such a long time, I forget how long it's been going on for! Looking for other properties, convincing my Mother to move, and getting my health sorted is all on the way but I know it will take time for something to be sorted out.
As time has gone on, I have found that my Iman is weakening (it could also be lethargy as I have not slept properly for a long time). For example, when I go to the Masjid for Salaah, I just feel like I am going through the motions and I do not feel a connection to Allah. Before when things were better, I would go to the Masjid and enjoy praying my Salaah and I felt a connection and I was happy and wanted to pray. Now it's totally the opposite. Also, I used to enjoy praying the Qura'an, but now that also seems like a chore. Plus Shaytan keeps whispering things in my ear like "Why bother praying, no one's going to listen to you!", "How long have you been praying for and what has changed?". I know I am not perfect, but I try and follow Islam the best I can: I pray, I look after my Mother, I help around at home, I don't hurt/upset anyone etc. Sometimes I get angry towards Allah, which I have no right in doing so, but tiredness and whispers in my ear are leading me down a very dark path.
I was wanting to know if anyone else has been through a phase like this and how they got over it. Also, is there anything I can pray or do to stop making me think and feel the way I am? I normally start praying Yaseen or praying various tasbeehs when things like this crop up in my mind, but the whispers seem to be taking over me. I know not what to do.
Also, if I contacted an Imam say from my Masjid or another local one, do you think they would judge me for thinking the way I am thinking and for saying the things I am saying? It's OK to do it on a forum as it is anonymous and no one knows me, but to do it face to face, I don't want to be thought of as some kind of hypocrite or have it held against me.
I hope someone might be able to give me some advice.
I know some of you have been following my trials and tribulations with my neighbours which has been ongoing for such a long time, I forget how long it's been going on for! Looking for other properties, convincing my Mother to move, and getting my health sorted is all on the way but I know it will take time for something to be sorted out.
As time has gone on, I have found that my Iman is weakening (it could also be lethargy as I have not slept properly for a long time). For example, when I go to the Masjid for Salaah, I just feel like I am going through the motions and I do not feel a connection to Allah. Before when things were better, I would go to the Masjid and enjoy praying my Salaah and I felt a connection and I was happy and wanted to pray. Now it's totally the opposite. Also, I used to enjoy praying the Qura'an, but now that also seems like a chore. Plus Shaytan keeps whispering things in my ear like "Why bother praying, no one's going to listen to you!", "How long have you been praying for and what has changed?". I know I am not perfect, but I try and follow Islam the best I can: I pray, I look after my Mother, I help around at home, I don't hurt/upset anyone etc. Sometimes I get angry towards Allah, which I have no right in doing so, but tiredness and whispers in my ear are leading me down a very dark path.
I was wanting to know if anyone else has been through a phase like this and how they got over it. Also, is there anything I can pray or do to stop making me think and feel the way I am? I normally start praying Yaseen or praying various tasbeehs when things like this crop up in my mind, but the whispers seem to be taking over me. I know not what to do.
Also, if I contacted an Imam say from my Masjid or another local one, do you think they would judge me for thinking the way I am thinking and for saying the things I am saying? It's OK to do it on a forum as it is anonymous and no one knows me, but to do it face to face, I don't want to be thought of as some kind of hypocrite or have it held against me.
I hope someone might be able to give me some advice.