I'm stuck in the Gulenist sect, but deep down I'm not sure if I agree with their beliefs, as I believe they may be too liberal, too nationalist, and have created too much bidah, and i distrust some of their politics. For instance, their followers say Christians and Jews might go to heaven if they were good people because only Allah knows, they believe looking up numerology and astrology is ok so long as you don't use it to predict the future, they believe in celebrating non muslim holidays such as 4th of july, thanksgiving, etc. though this is an exception many members free mix when in each other's homes, especially if the visiting woman is older than the host man (my mom says, "he's young enough to be my little brother" or "he's young enough to be my nephew") they are sufi, etc. for awhile, i wanted to join the salafi sect, or at least a masjid that doesn't follow a sect, but i don't know if my mother, who i live with, and am financially dependent on due to upcoming college, and emotionally dependent on due to autism, would allow me to be salafi, and loathes them with a burning passion, as does my father. as for mainstream masjids i have gotten angry when they or I discussed politics before, and i have often been told by gulenists about the dangers of radicalization.....one professor even told me "you could be praying, and the guy in front of you could be a terrorist! you never know!" and "islamic forums are breeding grounds for extremism" and my father said, "10 percent of people on islamic forums are CIA intelligence officers" I am thus reluctant to shake it off, but i dont know what to do.