BowlOfGumbo
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Assalam Alaykum. Hope you all are well.
I am a convert to Islam ALHAMDULILLAH. I have been Muslim for two years now but still, I have never formally told my family. My reasoning behind not telling them is due to me being a minor with no means of transportation or money.
But it is becoming more difficult for me because, I am beginning to let my family down.
My family calls me ridiculous because I'll not go into public with them. I don't wear hijab, I cant wear hijab. Though they dont understand my reasoning, it is hard to see my mother so angry with me. My father is constantly pestering me to go to the pool with him, but again I do not want to be naked in front of sooo many strangers. He tells me to "Get over it" and that this summer he will force me to go, he laughs about it as if its a joke.
Neither of my parents are bad people but they dont understand, nor would they want to.
So I have tried to find some soultion to this problem. I thought though I cant wear proper hijab maybe I can upgrade from skinny jeans to an outfit Id at least be comfortable wearing in public. So I bought many skirts from online which reach my ankles. I showed my father my purchases, of course I was enthusiastic. But he did not seem so. He had a stern look on his face. The same look he has when he's about to threaten to take my phone lol.
I dont know if this is because he fears having a weird daughter or if maybe he can see I am becoming more openly religious.
Also often times I find it hard to pray my five daily prayers, because I am NEVER alone. I do not even have a room for myself and have to read Quran in the closet.
I feel like everything is against me. Like I don't have a chance. Though I know this is temporary, that this world is forever changing but in the meantime what do I do? Sometimes I feel, does Allah even consider me a Muslim?
I am a convert to Islam ALHAMDULILLAH. I have been Muslim for two years now but still, I have never formally told my family. My reasoning behind not telling them is due to me being a minor with no means of transportation or money.
But it is becoming more difficult for me because, I am beginning to let my family down.
My family calls me ridiculous because I'll not go into public with them. I don't wear hijab, I cant wear hijab. Though they dont understand my reasoning, it is hard to see my mother so angry with me. My father is constantly pestering me to go to the pool with him, but again I do not want to be naked in front of sooo many strangers. He tells me to "Get over it" and that this summer he will force me to go, he laughs about it as if its a joke.
Neither of my parents are bad people but they dont understand, nor would they want to.
So I have tried to find some soultion to this problem. I thought though I cant wear proper hijab maybe I can upgrade from skinny jeans to an outfit Id at least be comfortable wearing in public. So I bought many skirts from online which reach my ankles. I showed my father my purchases, of course I was enthusiastic. But he did not seem so. He had a stern look on his face. The same look he has when he's about to threaten to take my phone lol.
I dont know if this is because he fears having a weird daughter or if maybe he can see I am becoming more openly religious.
Also often times I find it hard to pray my five daily prayers, because I am NEVER alone. I do not even have a room for myself and have to read Quran in the closet.
I feel like everything is against me. Like I don't have a chance. Though I know this is temporary, that this world is forever changing but in the meantime what do I do? Sometimes I feel, does Allah even consider me a Muslim?