My life has been full of up and downs.
At age of 6 I got really sick and went into coma for 5 months. Woke up from the coma and finding that I have lost 70% of my hearing and memory loss aswell. Learning everything such as walking, speaking, who my family was from the start again.
Then a year passed where my father passed away from a car accident. So fast forward to the present. In life anything is possible.
I did everything from college, to uni and got my grades Alhamdulilah and got the job I wanted in the finance section.
So Alhamdulilah everything was great and I meet this beautiful girl from my uni and couple years passed and we got married. Despite everything that happened I was really happy to have someone i love in my life.
Couple weeks later after the wedding I have learned that my wife was not happy and she was basically forced to marry me by her parents. It killed me inside learning this. We have been together for 8 months in halal way getting to know each other.
And I had to let her go after a month eventhough I really really did and still love her but I can see her hurting inside and putting brave face on.
It has been a month now since the separation and I can't bring myself to go home as it reminds me everything of my wife, I have been avoiding my own family because of this and I hate them to see me like this. I'm finding myself working alot now staying hours behind in the office or just sit in the car.
I am at the point where I find myself empty, worthless & cursed. I'm a strong person but losing the person I really loved has destroyed me and I don't blame her since she was forced. I wished that she had the courage to tell me this before hand.
Everyday is like a nightmare now, I'm still in peace when I am asleep but as soon I wake up i can see what I am missing again.
I am religious person and looking back. Why did I deserve all this, when will this end. Why me and why do I feel so damn cursed. I'm just tired to be honest
At age of 6 I got really sick and went into coma for 5 months. Woke up from the coma and finding that I have lost 70% of my hearing and memory loss aswell. Learning everything such as walking, speaking, who my family was from the start again.
Then a year passed where my father passed away from a car accident. So fast forward to the present. In life anything is possible.
I did everything from college, to uni and got my grades Alhamdulilah and got the job I wanted in the finance section.
So Alhamdulilah everything was great and I meet this beautiful girl from my uni and couple years passed and we got married. Despite everything that happened I was really happy to have someone i love in my life.
Couple weeks later after the wedding I have learned that my wife was not happy and she was basically forced to marry me by her parents. It killed me inside learning this. We have been together for 8 months in halal way getting to know each other.
And I had to let her go after a month eventhough I really really did and still love her but I can see her hurting inside and putting brave face on.
It has been a month now since the separation and I can't bring myself to go home as it reminds me everything of my wife, I have been avoiding my own family because of this and I hate them to see me like this. I'm finding myself working alot now staying hours behind in the office or just sit in the car.
I am at the point where I find myself empty, worthless & cursed. I'm a strong person but losing the person I really loved has destroyed me and I don't blame her since she was forced. I wished that she had the courage to tell me this before hand.
Everyday is like a nightmare now, I'm still in peace when I am asleep but as soon I wake up i can see what I am missing again.
I am religious person and looking back. Why did I deserve all this, when will this end. Why me and why do I feel so damn cursed. I'm just tired to be honest