theforsaken
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Well, hello... english is not my native language so i'm sorry if I got orthographic or grammar errors.
I'm atheist, at least for now, because none of the religions I learnt really convinced me. I must confess, I am 100% ignorant about islam, that's why im here.
A little bit of background:
I was risen as a christian in a christian orphanage.
When I rechead the age to be able to start reasoning, around 12 years old, I started rejecting the christian religion as I started learning about science and the scientific method, and rejected the existence of god and the virgin birth of jesus.
Also, I was unable to accept that there is a all loving god that allows all the misery and war of the world to happen.
Especially when christian religion tells us that only believers will get eternal life while non believers will burn in hell. I asked to the Brother of Mary (a volunteer in the orphanage from the Marists Brothers) not so long ago: "If I try to be as righteous as possible, if I help everyone I can, I refrain from committing sin and feel sorry because of committing it, and if I follow the teachings of the bible and the teachings of jesus, but I didn't believed while living: will I be able to get the eternal life in the company of the lord?"
The answer was "No, if you don't believe you will be punished in hell".
I am not able to believe in a god that will send good, innocent people to hell because of not feeding his ego. That is not perfect at all, and christians believe that their god is perfect.
I made a pact with my brain, it was "Until science can explain all the universe without any flaws at all, i will refrain from analysing theological facts scientifically. I recently learnt that islam also teaches about jesus and his virgin birth, at least for the moment, I am ready to accept and believe in any miracle as long as the philosophy of the religion does not disturb me.
And because of this the next question arises from my mind:
If i live as righteously as i can and follow the teachings of the quran and mohammed and jesus and blablablabla: will i still burn in hell?
I think that a god to be a god must be perfect, and the ego is not a part of perfection, at all. So why would the christian god, Jaweh or Allah care if I don't believe in any of them? If I do and live as they want me to do and live, it should be okay even if I don't believe in them.
I truly and desperately want to find the love and mercy of a father because I never got one, this is why I am searching for answers. I refuse to believe that lots of innocent people will suffer the hell for all eternity and that the suffering they all suffered will be paid with even more and never ending pain. I learnt that, through christian religion, that if one christian rapes his daughter and all the girls on the neighbourhood, then slaughter all the babies and then dismember all the men to finally also rape the women and then decapitate them all, he will be saved if he repents, because he believes, but not I that had not committed any remarkable sin, because of not believing.
I want to know if islam is the same that christianity in that point. if it is the same I will not even consider it.
I seek for advise.
I'm atheist, at least for now, because none of the religions I learnt really convinced me. I must confess, I am 100% ignorant about islam, that's why im here.
A little bit of background:
I was risen as a christian in a christian orphanage.
When I rechead the age to be able to start reasoning, around 12 years old, I started rejecting the christian religion as I started learning about science and the scientific method, and rejected the existence of god and the virgin birth of jesus.
Also, I was unable to accept that there is a all loving god that allows all the misery and war of the world to happen.
Especially when christian religion tells us that only believers will get eternal life while non believers will burn in hell. I asked to the Brother of Mary (a volunteer in the orphanage from the Marists Brothers) not so long ago: "If I try to be as righteous as possible, if I help everyone I can, I refrain from committing sin and feel sorry because of committing it, and if I follow the teachings of the bible and the teachings of jesus, but I didn't believed while living: will I be able to get the eternal life in the company of the lord?"
The answer was "No, if you don't believe you will be punished in hell".
I am not able to believe in a god that will send good, innocent people to hell because of not feeding his ego. That is not perfect at all, and christians believe that their god is perfect.
I made a pact with my brain, it was "Until science can explain all the universe without any flaws at all, i will refrain from analysing theological facts scientifically. I recently learnt that islam also teaches about jesus and his virgin birth, at least for the moment, I am ready to accept and believe in any miracle as long as the philosophy of the religion does not disturb me.
And because of this the next question arises from my mind:
If i live as righteously as i can and follow the teachings of the quran and mohammed and jesus and blablablabla: will i still burn in hell?
I think that a god to be a god must be perfect, and the ego is not a part of perfection, at all. So why would the christian god, Jaweh or Allah care if I don't believe in any of them? If I do and live as they want me to do and live, it should be okay even if I don't believe in them.
I truly and desperately want to find the love and mercy of a father because I never got one, this is why I am searching for answers. I refuse to believe that lots of innocent people will suffer the hell for all eternity and that the suffering they all suffered will be paid with even more and never ending pain. I learnt that, through christian religion, that if one christian rapes his daughter and all the girls on the neighbourhood, then slaughter all the babies and then dismember all the men to finally also rape the women and then decapitate them all, he will be saved if he repents, because he believes, but not I that had not committed any remarkable sin, because of not believing.
I want to know if islam is the same that christianity in that point. if it is the same I will not even consider it.
I seek for advise.