I feel i'm a hypocrite and always will be, why? Well for instance my imaan is so weak, i wonder if am any different of a kafir. Secondly, i started to miss my salats intentionally. Three, i don't keep promises, i always break them. Sometimes i think i have no way out. My emaan is one hour high, the other hour so low. I always try to imgaine myself being tortured. First I used to be very afraid, but no it almost seems normal to me. It may sound absurd, but one night I think i have commited kufr, i was almost asleep, when I just gave up on Allah. I think i probably have an atomweight of emaan in my heart. I do't go outside, all i want to do is sleep. But i get dreams where i see myself commting kufr. I wish this never happened. I wish I was normal, i don't think anyone can save me. Then at the last moment I try to imagine myself in Hell for eternity, i just feel that's ok which makes me sick. I am phsyically and mentally exhausted. Am I doomed? I thin
Asalaamu Alaikum Wr Wb, my sister you are just thinking too much all of the time. An idle mind is the devils playground. You should try not to sit around thinking too much because then all kinds of thoughts will go across your mind. Just because you may think you have committed kufr it does'nt mean you have, it is just shaythan playing around with your mind and trying to confuse you.
Belief in Allah Ta'ala is something that you have to strive for. For some people, it comes easily. For others, it is their particular jihad, or struggle, to remain steadfast in belief.
One of the duas you should make is,
“Allahumma, ya muqallib al-qulub wa’l absar, thabbit qalbi ala deenik.” “O Allah, O Controller of the hearts and eyes, let my heart hold fast onto your religion.”
Bad thoughts can be a test from Allah Ta'ala to see how we handle them. Our response should be one of gratitude to Allah Ta'ala that He has chosen us for belief. We should also respond to this test by seeking refuge in Allah from shaytan the accursed. We should seek refuge in Allah from the whisperings of our nafs. Finally, we should repent to Allah from these bad thoughts and try to replace each bad thought with a good one.
Whenever a bad thought occurs to you:
a) seek Allah’s forgiveness [saying, Astaghfirullah (‘I seek Allah’s forgiveness’)];
b) seek protection from the Shaytan [saying, A`udhu billahi min ash-shaytan ar-rajeem (‘I seek refuge in Allah from the accursed shaytan’)]
c) cut out the things that result in that bad thought immediately [e.g. shut the window with such images]
d) then thank Allah, wholeheartedly, for enabling you to overcome your desires and shaytan [saying, Alhamdulillah (‘All praise is due to Allah’)]; this makes Shaytan despair, and strengthens one’s resolve.
If you keep erring, keep repeating these 4 quick and simple steps, and making dua with your prayers that Allah protect you. If you keep turning to Allah sincerely, He’ll accept your entreating, and free you of these problems.
Allah Most High has promised,
“As for those who strive in Us, We surely guide them to Our paths, and lo! Allah is with the good.” [Qur’an, 29.69]
Finally, try to eliminate bad influences in your life, whether they are from the television, movies, or even questionable companions. Or in your case do not sit or lie around not doing anything because this is the time when shaythan plays with your head and confuses you with all kinds of thoughts. Then replace these bad influences with good ones, such as joining sisters study circles, reciting a portion of the Qur'an everyday, and performing voluntary worship in addition to your obligatory devotions like the ones in these threads:
Forty Very Easy, Quick & Rewarding Good Deeds for all of us to do Everyday!
I feel i'm a hypocrite and always will be, why? Well for instance my imaan is so weak, i wonder if am any different of a kafir. Secondly, i started to miss my salats intentionally. Three, i don't keep promises, i always break them. Sometimes i think i have no way out. My emaan is one hour high, the other hour so low. I always try to imgaine myself being tortured. First I used to be very afraid, but no it almost seems normal to me. It may sound absurd, but one night I think i have commited kufr, i was almost asleep, when I just gave up on Allah. I think i probably have an atomweight of emaan in my heart. I do't go outside, all i want to do is sleep. But i get dreams where i see myself commting kufr. I wish this never happened. I wish I was normal, i don't think anyone can save me. Then at the last moment I try to imagine myself in Hell for eternity, i just feel that's ok which makes me sick. I am phsyically and mentally exhausted. Am I doomed? I thin
In the name of Allah, Most Compassionate, Most Merciful,
Having doubts in Allah Almighty is perfectly natural and one should avoid being too concerned about them. In fact, doubts and evil thoughts are a sign of one’s faith.
Sayyiduna Abu Haraira (Allah be pleased with him) narrates that once a group of people came to the Messenger of Allah (Allah bless him & give him peace) and asked: “We experience such evil thoughts that it is impossible to bring them on our lips”. The Messenger of Allah (Allah bless him & give him peace) said: “Do you really experience these thoughts? Yes, they replied. The Messenger of Allah (Allah bless him & give him peace) said: “They are clear signs of faith”. (Sahih Muslim).
Sayyiduna Ibn Abbas (Allah have mercy on him) narrates that a Companion came to the Messenger of Allah (Allah bless him & give him peace) and asked: “Sometimes I experience such thoughts that I would rather be reduced to charcoal than get them on my lips” (meaning that to speak of these thoughts was worse than burning in fire, m).The Messenger of Allah (Allah bless him & give him peace) said: “All praise is to Allah who restricted the devil’s designs to mere evil promptings”. (Sunan Abu Dawud,)
The above two narrations Cleary show that it is not unusual to have these evil thoughts neither is one more sinful or evil due to them. Even some Companions of the blessed Messenger of Allah (Allah bless him & give him peace) received these thoughts, as we have seen in the above narrations.
Therefore, one should not be worried on their account or feel sad and deterred, for these thoughts are signs of faith.
Some scholars have explained this by saying that a robber or thief only strikes at a place where he knows that there is wealth or money. He would not break into a place where there is no wealth. Similarly, when the devil (shaytan) whispers and puts these evil thoughts into anyone’s heart, then this shows that this person has the wealth of faith (iman) in his heart. If there was no wealth in that heart, Shaytan would have never entered it, thus one should not worry about these evil thoughts.
No sin on mere thoughts
It should also remember that one is not accountable for the evil thoughts that occur in the mind and heart as long as they remain thoughts.
Sayyiduna Abu Huraira (Allah be pleased with him) narrates that the Messenger of Allah (Allah bless him & give him peace) said:
“Verily Allah forgives my Ummah for the evil thoughts that occur in their hearts until they don’t say it verbally or act upon it”. (Sahih al-Bukhari & Sahih Muslim).
Therefore, one does not come out of the fold of Islam due to experiencing these evil thoughts, neither is there any sin., as long as one remains a believer with his heart, mouth and action.
What to do
When experiencing evil thoughts one should do the following:
1) Do not be worried about them, rather one should be happy, for the occurring of evil thoughts is a sign of faith. A saint said: “Shaytan can not tolerate a believer being happy, thus when he sees him being happy for receiving these thoughts, he stops from whispering them.
2) When these thoughts come, one should occupy oneself with something else. These thoughts will not disappear by simply desiring them to go, rather, one should get busy in some work or task.
3) One should seek Allah’s protection and refuge from the devil. Sayyiduna Abu Huraira (Allah be pleased with him) narrates that the Messenger of Allah (Allah bless him & give him peace) said:
“The devil (shaytan) comes to one of you and says: “Who created this? Who created that? Until he says: “Who created your Lord?” When one experiences this, one should seek Allah’s refuge and stop the matter there”. (Sahih al-Bukhari & Sahih Muslim).
The following verse of Surah al-mu’minun may be beneficial:
“Rabbi inni a’uzu bika min hamazat ashayatin wa a’uzu bika rabbi an yahdurun”
Trans: O my Lord! I seek your protection from the instigations of devils and I also seek your protection from that they (ever) come to me.
can the jinn follow you in to the mosque when i was sitting with my teacher i got really stupid thoughts and started to feel really weird so much that i wanted to get up and leave
I feel i'm a hypocrite and always will be, why? Well for instance my imaan is so weak, i wonder if am any different of a kafir. Secondly, i started to miss my salats intentionally. Three, i don't keep promises, i always break them. Sometimes i think i have no way out. My emaan is one hour high, the other hour so low. I always try to imgaine myself being tortured. First I used to be very afraid, but no it almost seems normal to me. It may sound absurd, but one night I think i have commited kufr, i was almost asleep, when I just gave up on Allah. I think i probably have an atomweight of emaan in my heart. I do't go outside, all i want to do is sleep. But i get dreams where i see myself commting kufr. I wish this never happened. I wish I was normal, i don't think anyone can save me. Then at the last moment I try to imagine myself in Hell for eternity, i just feel that's ok which makes me sick. I am phsyically and mentally exhausted. Am I doomed? I thin
Have you considered that you may have an organic Brain issue involved? I have spent the last Eleven years working with people who have mental health issues. You should follow the advice of Faithful Muslims as to your faith but you sound as if you might have clinical depression and possibly Bi-polar disorder. I suggest you consider seeing a Psychiatrist for an evaluation.
Well, here is the thing. I think I become from a bad muslim to strong belioever to a pure hypocrite. I miss having faith in your heart, now I wake up every day wondering when will Allah guide you. You see, i don't feel like a muslim any more. I feel more like a hypocrite, I brought myself to destruction, i feel like i can do anything good. Sometimes for a few seconds I have hop[e but then I despair again.
sister i can give you only 1 piece of advice - the solution to all your problems..............
READ THE QURAN!!!
establish a relationship with it - the number 1 thing to increase you imaan.
if you start believing your a hypocrite you will become one, put your trust in that which Allah has commanded.
Well, here is the thing. I think I become from a bad muslim to strong belioever to a pure hypocrite. I miss having faith in your heart, now I wake up every day wondering when will Allah guide you. You see, i don't feel like a muslim any more. I feel more like a hypocrite, I brought myself to destruction, i feel like i can do anything good. Sometimes for a few seconds I have hop[e but then I despair again.
sister,
you are not a hypocrite. hypocites do not feel ashamed or sad. their hearts do not feel upset. you are a good muslimah inshallah.
you need to connect to Allah by making duas, doing duties and avoiding bad.
let the bad thoughts come and go. dont think over it too much. the more u think, the worse it becomes. Allah do not punish for these bad thoughts.
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which makes me sick. I am phsyically and mentally exhausted. Am I doomed? I thin
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can the jinn follow you in to the mosque when i was sitting with my teacher i got really stupid thoughts and started to feel really weird so much that i wanted to get up and leave
Well, here is the thing. I think I become from a bad muslim to strong belioever to a pure hypocrite. I miss having faith in your heart, now I wake up every day wondering when will Allah guide you. You see, i don't feel like a muslim any more. I feel more like a hypocrite, I brought myself to destruction, i feel like i can do anything good. Sometimes for a few seconds I have hop[e but then I despair again.
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