That is the impression I am getting from this forum. Utter suffocation and who needs western media when this forum and their members are doing all the work for them.
So yes when I do log off from this forum I tend to feel like I came out of the jungle with all of the braches, the hot weather, the snakes and the insects. Do you know that feeling you get when you are all sweating and confused?
I came to this forum to clear misconceptions gained from experience s like horrendous marriage, blood brothers and culture. And I wasn’t really active in this forum until about a year ago or so.
But this forum has done little. Granted, some people have cleared and explained some things but not all. In some case added to the misconceptions.
I came out this forum every time thinking why is that one gender doesn’t have full accountability whilst other does? Why does one group have to take the extra mile whilst other doesn’t? Why does changes have to occur on one side not the other?
And then you have ‘members’ from the same group as you. And they say well hmm I don’t have a problem with it, why do you? Well I am not you..
And I am not a ‘modernist’ or ‘feminist’ or any other ridiculous ideologist, I am your average Muslim that prays, never committed zina, never taken drugs, I never had male friends. I keep myself to myself yet I can’t to get to grip with this. And I don’t know why?
I can’t grip with the idea that I am created to stay at home; ask permission from male relative like they are perfect. My relatives and ex are far from perfect; they are one of the worse. They really are. Yet they get to have some control over me?
Do you know that feeling when you stay up during the night and pray and pray? And you don’t get any answers?
You expect at least some justice in this world. And you don’t get any not from sentence the British justice system give out not from your own **** family.
The gender thing is not huge problem. It is the forgiveness part that is bugging me. I don’t even know if I am still a Muslim? Because I actually hated someone and it was for good reasons not minor stuff. Takes me back to the accountability, that person has never take any responsibility for his own action despite it being horrific enough to land him in jail.
It always happens to be my fault. ‘You didn’t listen to him’ ‘you must have said something’ ‘you, you, you'.