desperate and in complete despair for the first time in my life (OP)
i come from a typical, non practising, pakistani family with backward ideas
i am the only one who tries to practise but even thats been put on hold now, because of my deprression.
In a years time or maybe 2 years if the are extremely lenient, i will be shipped to pakistan to marry a cousin, uneductaed, obese, dark (not thats theres anything wrong with being dark), and without a speck of imaan, someone who lies and cheats in the footsteps of his and my wider family.
i am a very cheery member of this forum and have been since it first began. you wud be suprised if i revealed my identity!, for the first time in my life, i have felt complete and utter despair. i have been thru alot in my short life, my childhood was loveless and brutal, i suffered migraines as a child!!, and now i expected things to get better, have waited for so long, just to find this!.
if suicide wasnt harm, i would have long ended my life (as i attempted many times in my childhood)
if drinking wasnt haram, i would drink unitl i wud pass out.
but i can do nothing
nothing.
just sit here and hear the blood pound in my head
plz help
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I am so sorry and sad to hear of your problems little one.........
I pray to Allah that InshaAllah your situation is eased by now and things have worked out favourably for you Ameen.................
However honey one thing i will say to you is PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE do not let your family bully you, or sweet talk you into this marraige. It will not work because you have already not accepted him. You will just end up resenting him and your family.
What will happen when the marraige does not work then you have the izzat behsti thing to face too..................
Allah forgive me if i have given the wrong advice, because i do not know the full situation. I have seen this thing in my life so many times and repeatdly ask myself the same question. When will our parents learn.
Have saburand make as much dua as you can pray that Allah shows you and guides you to do the right thing. Ameen.
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