Skavau said:
Let's suggest that it is because I like killing bugs. When do I decide to have the intention of killing bugs?
In Islam, we have a habit of stating our intention before doing anything, usually in our heads or as a whisper, so that it can be recorded by the Angels and used for your benefit on the Day of Judgement. That's why we say "Bismillah" whenever we do something good or something for Allah's sake. But an intention could also be unconscious, and this is based on your character and your experiences as you said.
An interesting aspect to this is that if you don't intend to do something bad and it just happens, then you won't be punished for it. You'll only be punished for a bad thing that you intended to do. Also, if you make the intention of doing something bad, but don't do it, Allah will reward you. Also, if you intend to do something good, but don't do it, Allah will give you one reward for you intention... but if you carry out the good act after you've made your intention, Allah will reward you a thousand times over. That's Allah's great generosity and mecry for ya!
Allah's is the only judicial system that judges you by your intention, and is the only one that can be 100% fair.
I take it you're here to learn some of these things, that's why I'm writing this. I hope I'm not boring you...
Skavau said:
I have already been seen to do everything I will do even though I do not exist as of yet. No matter what I will fulfill what has been seen.
That is correct. I think it's important to point out that westerners have a rather different understanding of what destiny is than Muslims. I've noticed in a lot of movies, shows, etc. that characters are always saying how they want to change their destinies, or change their fates. What it seems to me is that they think that if they are born into a certain way of life, let's say being poor, that if they become rich later on in life, they are changing their destiny. Or if they think they can't do something and everybody keeps insisting that it's their destiny to forget about it, and they do it anyways, that their destiny has changed somehow.
The Islamic understanding is that all the choices that you'll make in life and all the actions that you'll do as a result of those choices is pre-written. Now, on the Day of Judgement, Allah will tell you that you did that and that, and He will ask you why you did it. This is where your intention comes in. If your intention is for good and out of obedience to Allah, then it'll be counted as a good deed, but if it was for something bad, or something out of rebellion to Allah, then it'll be counted as a bad deed. We each live our lives so that we have a chance to make the right intentions for our actions (which to us seem like choices), so that we will have proof on the Day of Judgement that we did each action for certain reasons.
It's exactly how they said it in the Matrix: "You're not here to make the choice -- you've already made it. You're here to find out why you made it."
Skavau said:
If I will fulfill what has been seen, then where do I draw my motivations and beliefs from? It can't be from previous experiences because they were already seen to happen regardless of what my motivation would be. I'm trying to find a way of putting this into words.
Yeah, I know it's tricky, all this destiny talk. Well, you live your live obvlivious to your future, all you know is your past and your present, and what has been revealed by Allah to be the future. So in other words, who really cares what your destiny is as long as you do your best on an everyday basis to do good things and to please Allah. You motivation in this case is from your faith in Allah which is partly from the natural beacon that he placed inside each of us that wants to return to Him, and this is what gives us compassion, discipline, and all things that make us want to live by good deeds and in peace with one another.
Skavau said:
My lack of knowledge over my future does not eradicate that another source would know my future.
That "other source" is Allah. I don't see what the problem is with that, as it would not influence your freewill whatsoever.
Skavau said:
What is the purpose of their existence then? He would of pre-seen millions of individuals who would live for a very short time and then die and be given an instant position in paradise?
Only Allah knows that their role is on the earth. We can only speculate. Maybe it's a test of integrity for their parents, or maybe a test of compassion for the nurses and doctors that would treat a newborn baby before it dies. Everyone is faced with some kind of tragedy or hardship in their lives as a test from Allah. Even the ones who seem to have it easy, they're also being tested, just differently than others.
Skavau said:
I used to say a lot more stuff about this topic in the past - but I'm finding hard to clarify what I mean on this - when it goes this deep.
I know what you mean, man.