Wa Iyakum Aameeen
You are a mass of feelings and emotions my respected brother and none has the right ever to stop ya from expressing your feelings...whenever you are sad try to find a place where none can be there but Allah then you . make ablution then pray its Sunnah (2 Rakat) and let all of your sadness get out while praying to Allah in your Sujood...cry if you want and ask Allah for the relief...He Is listening and The Only One Who knows what you are going through and how exactly you are feeling... tell Him everything let all your sorrow out for The One Who really tame and bring happiness to your burdened heart...I assure ya after that you will feel so light and refreshed and Allah will give you so much of strength and life to bear whatever In shaa.
Your wife loves you as i believe and she is trying to bear and be strong to not worry you...
I Ask Allah with all of His Names and Attributes; The Known to all of His creatures dead and alive and with The Ones which unknown but to Him and beg Him The Lord of Al Aaalameen with His Greatest Name which if one of His slaves would ask Him for anything by it then He answers, accept and grant him/her need to love you , Be with you always and Be pleased with you with a pleasure which there is no wrath after it in both dunya and Akhirah and May The One Who united you in this dunya; unite you both with your kids and all those whom you love in Al Firdaws Al Aalaa without any reckoning nor previous punishment; entering Al Jannah from all its 8 doors with the first group entering it Ya Rabb and May He The Most Merciful The Exalted The Most Generous build houses for you close to Him; seeing His Al Mighty Face all the time ; covered with all of His blessings and grace; gathered with all Anbiyaa and Saaliheen Yaaa Rabbb...
Anilhamdulilaahi Rabbi Ilaalameen wa assalaatu wa assalam alaa khaatam Al Anbiyaa wa Al Mursaleen Muhammad Bin Abdillahi wa Aalihi wa Sahbihi wa man Ettabahu be'ehsaanin Elaa Yawmuddeen
Allahuma Aameeeeeeeeeeeeeen
You are strong by Allah and after Him In Shaa Allah we won't forget a dear and precious son of our beloved Ummah In Shaa Allah...your worries, sadness, happiness and whatever are ours...we are all one body In Shaa Allah...You are not alone In Shaa Allah...even the angels (peace be upon them) make duaa for the believers (read Surat Ghaafir and it has the proof).
some supplications you may want to know In Shaa Allah:
In al-Saheehayn it was reported from Ibn ‘Abbaas that the Messenger of Allaah (Peace and Blessings of Allaah be upon him) used to say, when he felt distressed:
لا إلَهَ إلاَّ اللَّهُ الْعَظـيمُ الْحَلِـيمْ، لا إلَهَ إلاَّ اللَّهُ رَبُّ العَـرْشِ العَظِيـمِ، لا إلَهَ إلاَّ اللَّهُ رَبُّ السَّمَـوّاتِ ورّبُّ الأَرْضِ ورَبُّ العَرْشِ الكَـريم
“La ilaaha ill-Allaah al-‘Azeem ul-Haleem, Laa ilaaha ill-Allaah Rabb il-‘arsh il-‘azeem, Laa ilaaha ill-Allaah Rabb is-samawaati wa Rabb il-ard wa Rabb il-‘arsh il-kareem”
“There is no god except Allaah, the All-Mighty, the Forbearing; there is no god except Allaah, the Lord of the Mighty Throne; there is no god except Allaah, Lord of the heavens, Lord of the earth and Lord of the noble Throne.” (Al-Bukhari 8/154, Muslim 4/2092, )
It was reported from Anas (may Allaah be pleased with him) that the Prophet (Peace and Blessings of Allaah be upon him) used to say, when something upset him:
“Yaa Hayyu yaa Qayyoom, bi Rahmatika astagheeth (O Ever-Living One, O Everlasting One, by Your mercy I seek help).”
It was reported that Asmaa’ bint ‘Umays (may Allaah be pleased with her) said: The Messenger of Allaah (peace and blessings of Allaah be upon him) said to me:
“Shall I not teach you some words to say when you feel distressed?
اللهُ اللهُ رَبِّ لا أُشْـرِكُ بِهِ شَيْـئاً
‘Allaah, Allaah, Rabbee laa ushriku bihi shay’an’
Allaah, Allaah, my Lord, I do not associate anything with Him (Abu Dawud 2/87. See also Al-Albani, Sahih Ibn Majah 2/335.)
It was reported from ‘Abd-Allaah ibn Mas’ood that the Prophet (peace and blessings of Allaah be upon him) said: “No person suffers any anxiety or grief, and says:
للّهُـمَّ إِنِّي عَبْـدُكَ ابْنُ عَبْـدِكَ ابْنُ أَمَتِـكَ نَاصِيَتِي بِيَـدِكَ، مَاضٍ فِيَّ حُكْمُكَ، عَدْلٌ فِيَّ قَضَاؤكَ أَسْأَلُـكَ بِكُلِّ اسْمٍ هُوَ لَكَ سَمَّـيْتَ بِهِ نَفْسَكَ أِوْ أَنْزَلْتَـهُ فِي كِتَابِكَ، أَوْ عَلَّمْـتَهُ أَحَداً مِنْ خَلْقِـكَ أَوِ اسْتَـأْثَرْتَ بِهِ فِي عِلْمِ الغَيْـبِ عِنْـدَكَ أَنْ تَجْـعَلَ القُرْآنَ رَبِيـعَ قَلْبِـي، وَنورَ صَـدْرِي وجَلَاءَ حُـزْنِي وذَهَابَ هَمِّـي
‘Allaahumma innee ‘abduka wa ibn ‘abdika wa ibn amatika, naasiyati bi yadika, maadin fiyya hukmuka, ‘adlun fiyya qadaa’uka, as’aluka bi kulli ismin huwa laka sammayta bihi nafsaka aw anzaltahu fi kitaabika aw ‘allamtahu ahadan min khalqika aw ista’tharta bihi fi ‘ilm il-ghaybi ‘andak an taj’ala al-Qur’aana rabee’ qalbi wa noor sadri wa jalaa’a huzni wa dhahaaba hammi’
“O Allaah, I am Your slave, son of Your slave, son of Your female slave, my forelock is in Your hand, Your command over me is forever executed and Your decree over me is just. I ask You by every Name belonging to You which You named Yourself with, or revealed in Your Book, or You taught to any of Your creation, or You have preserved in the knowledge of the unseen with You, that You make the Qur’aan the life of my heart and the light of my breast, and a departure for my sorrow and a release for my anxiety”
but Allah will take away his sorrow and grief, and give him in their stead joy.” (Ahmad 1/391)
forgive me for the long post and May Allah Be with you always and forever and the Whole Ummah too Aameeen
